monologue
i'm tired, and a bit sad. is it so hard to reflect? i don't wish to complain, i just... i want to justify to myself that i said something once before. at this moment i am very lonely. there are people in the other room, and i'm even in a pretty good mood... but still. i want someone to touch my heart. i wish someone to motivate me through their love of me. i try. i try to bless people as best as i can, sometimes i just wish that people would do the same. not to say people don't, but they don't very often. it saddens me when i cannot say that i am specifically important to someone, who is specifically important to me. it saddens me that i must take what little i receive and make it mean something. it saddens me that i lack the faith to believe someone's words because of their actions. it saddens me that i cannot be a hero for the people that are most dear, that i can't always protect them. are these just passing things? when i am older, will it matter? but tonight, tonight i wish that you wanted me to hold you... tonight i wish that you held your presence near me so that you'd always be a part of my life. even if its subtle, though i'd notice, even if it's not returned, i wish that someone dearly wanted me. oh, well. my wishes don't change anything, and those that should hear this will not. and so it will be as it always is, til people learn, but i guess that's what unconditional love is anyway. may God bless you, and watch over you.