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i want somthing normal.
something that ever 17 year old has or goes thru.
i want to be motivated.
i want everything that could possible be normal, but that will ever be.
i screwed up that a while ago.
i don’t know why my life turned out to be like this.
i don’t know why i lost motivation so long ago.
my life could of been good, i could of been great.
but i feel like a failure.
i feel like i missed out on a normal life.
because of me being negative and rebellious.
i fucked everything up.
relationships with friends, my parents.
my future.
i could be at home like very other person my age.
being taken care of by my parents, getting ready for college.
going to the one social event that is suppose to be the highlight of high school.
but im stuck feeling worthless that i will never have that.
that even if i wanted that. i dont have the money to.
because unlike ever 17 year old, i have to pay for bills and life.
instead of paying for a dress, and prom tickets.
even if i wanted to go, i never could. and it hurts.sighs.
i have no motivation to go to college.
because well, my motivation..my source left me along time ago.
right now i wish i wasn’t the person i am.
i wish things went differently.
i wish i was different.
i don’t want to be like this anymore.
something that ever 17 year old has or goes thru.
i want to be motivated.
i want everything that could possible be normal, but that will ever be.
i screwed up that a while ago.
i don’t know why my life turned out to be like this.
i don’t know why i lost motivation so long ago.
my life could of been good, i could of been great.
but i feel like a failure.
i feel like i missed out on a normal life.
because of me being negative and rebellious.
i fucked everything up.
relationships with friends, my parents.
my future.
i could be at home like very other person my age.
being taken care of by my parents, getting ready for college.
going to the one social event that is suppose to be the highlight of high school.
but im stuck feeling worthless that i will never have that.
that even if i wanted that. i dont have the money to.
because unlike ever 17 year old, i have to pay for bills and life.
instead of paying for a dress, and prom tickets.
even if i wanted to go, i never could. and it hurts.sighs.
i have no motivation to go to college.
because well, my motivation..my source left me along time ago.
right now i wish i wasn’t the person i am.
i wish things went differently.
i wish i was different.
i don’t want to be like this anymore.