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[notaliveanymore]

I haven't posted hear in a long time. I haven't actually been doing anything in a long time either.

I accidentally had by annual "hobo phase" last a couple months longer than I originally intended. Sorry.

But a lot of shit has gone down in the months that I have ABANDONED EVERYTHING ON THE INTERNET EVER, OH MY FUCKING GOD. I don't mean that in the normal 'oh my god a lot has been going on guyz, i hav been so freaking busy doing nothing, omg' kind of way. Shit has actually been going down and it is still raining hard.

I think I need to find a new metaphor.

I might have found solace in something that I should have never have considered to be acceptable in anyway.

I might have started writing angsty poetry over on my deviantart.

I might have almost done something so fucking stupid that I don't want to think about it anymore.

I might have caused this hole rift between my friends that will never be fixed.

I might have acted like a whiny bitch to every-god-damned-one.

I might have not left my room except for school, the bathroom, occasional meals, and being dragged out of the house for almost months on end.

I might have stopped speaking at one point.

I might have been getting better.

I might have stupidly looked at triggering stuff thinking I could handle it.

I might have stopped speaking at one point.

I might have been overly jealous.

I might have been a shitty friend.

I might have finally told my parents, after almost three or four years.

Long story short:

I'll hopefully start using this journal for real, get back into reading fanfics properly again, and start posting my own fanfics soon.