no words
I can barely write an intelligible sentence so why am I attempting to write about the incredible and overwhelming amount of pain and loss feel at the moment? I can't explain in mere words the pure love I felt for my baby boy. There are no words to express that kind of love in the way that makes it understandable. Just as there are no words to explain the grief I am feeling. I'm stuck with just feeling the feelings and, in no way can I intellectualize or rationalize them because, there are no words. I'm stuck with my grief until I find a way to process it or try to be patient while time works its magic. I can't even have a stiff drink to numb my feelings. Tonight's going to be one very long and nightmarish night. But, it will get better. It always does.
I'm sorry about the avatar. I can't bring myself to change it yet.
I'm sorry about the avatar. I can't bring myself to change it yet.