well its father day
and this time next year there will be a son.. but will there be a father? im tired of putting my life on hold waiting to find out whats going to happen for my son. his life will be filled with what it can be filled with. if that means having his dad in the picture great. if it doesnt then great. but as for me waiting to see whats going to happen i guess ive got another 24 hours before i know for sure. three months ago waiting two days to hear from him would have killed me and now its cool because i dont expect to hear from him now. it's been three months whats another two days or forever. time is no longer a factor to me. ive had to grow up and do what i have to do because life is too short and there are responsiblities i have to take care of first. People want to ask me how I'm not bitter and truthfully i am alittle. He gets to walk around swinging his dick from side to side and I'm the one who's gotta be home, working hard to support another life and staying sane in order to deal with it all. but im not gonna sacfrice anything anymore. I deserve to have a life as much as he does. He's got himself a girlfriend and I deserve some happiness in my life too. And I'm going for it. We'll be parents but single parents and thats okay with me. Alrite well I gotta go get ready for work.. Talk to you all soon.