The leaves are changing, time for depression
I forget how easily depression reinserts itself into my life. I had forgotten the fright in being suddenly, clearly suicidal, without knowing how you got there, a brain loudly dropping hints to itself. You interrupt it, That doesn't make sense, or, But why should I do it?
Depression has been stealing your initiative, stockpiling it in secret. It dumps it back on you in the form of, Do it! Reason is not important!
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via spoggly: This editorial! (NSFW)
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The self-injury workbook surpasses the dittos from the hospital and the books at Barnes & Noble I've leafed through.
Understanding Self-Injury: A Workbook for Adults
Google hasn't turned a torrent up, so I'm transcribing. (Sixty pages! O frabjous joy.)
And, well. The copy in my possession was published in 1994. Now, the early nineties were a time of great theoretical confusion, I know. But I am running into sections like Learning Healthy Ways to Cope with Your Childhood Satanic Ritual Abuse Experiences and If You Have Blocked Out Some Things You May Want to Try Regression Therapy. My fingers hover over the keys while I Oh, dear to myself and figure out what to do with those pages.
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As always, tree knows what I'm thinking before I do: No, I R Not OK. Now, what?
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People feel disconnected from themselves, from other people, and … from a "regular" sense of time and space.
[T]hey begin to accept it as part of a whole range of emotions that come and go; they learn that feelings have beginnings, middles and ends. (44)
Depression has been stealing your initiative, stockpiling it in secret. It dumps it back on you in the form of, Do it! Reason is not important!
*
via spoggly: This editorial! (NSFW)
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The self-injury workbook surpasses the dittos from the hospital and the books at Barnes & Noble I've leafed through.
Understanding Self-Injury: A Workbook for Adults
Google hasn't turned a torrent up, so I'm transcribing. (Sixty pages! O frabjous joy.)
And, well. The copy in my possession was published in 1994. Now, the early nineties were a time of great theoretical confusion, I know. But I am running into sections like Learning Healthy Ways to Cope with Your Childhood Satanic Ritual Abuse Experiences and If You Have Blocked Out Some Things You May Want to Try Regression Therapy. My fingers hover over the keys while I Oh, dear to myself and figure out what to do with those pages.
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As always, tree knows what I'm thinking before I do: No, I R Not OK. Now, what?
*
People feel disconnected from themselves, from other people, and … from a "regular" sense of time and space.
[T]hey begin to accept it as part of a whole range of emotions that come and go; they learn that feelings have beginnings, middles and ends. (44)