Blah! Bored.
Man I am freaking out from boredom. I have one day off a week generally, and it's usually a Wednesday. How convenient. But moreso... there's nothing to do! I'm on a pretty limited income, and what I do make tends to feed into massage supplies (today's purchse of two more sheet sets and some special detergent to eliminate oil in the sheets came to $70). I've beaten all the video games I have, sold them, used that money to buy different ones, which were subsequently beaten. No one has a similar schedule to me, so actually getting out and doing something like seeing a movie or just hanging out or whatever tends to be fairly difficult. There are tons of bars around here, but those eat my cash (not that I couldn't go for a drink right now), but that's all there is to do. No cable or anything to fall back on.
Ok now that I'm slightly more under control, main thoughts. I love massage school. It's fun, there are great people there, I feel like I'm learning a good way to genuinely help people out. I can't help regretting going sometimes though. I mean, I REALLY wanna go get my own place...meaning live with some friends somewhere. Because I chose to go to massage school I really can't. And barring winning the lottery, it's put me in debt even longer. Though, to start off I'm looking at a pretty good wage. I could get my very own apartment somewhere decent if I wanted to. I definitely do NOT want to live by myself right now though. There's too much fun to be had and parties to throw and go to. And yes, I do plan to get a place with whomever wants to live with me come September, but I want out right now. I'm so fucking stir crazy.
In other news. I'm fucking retarded. I finally deleted Kati's phone # from my cell and her screennames. I can't help but think of that movie How High when I say that ("I'm taking you off my buddy list bitch!"). But I finally got some more closure, which I needed. I mean it's been like 8 months-ish. This should not have bothered me for so long, but that relationship fucked me up. I think I like the prospect of actually not having a girlfriend. It's been fun, but it's been weighing on my mind anyway for so long, I just haven't been interested in seeing other girls or anything. Anyway, it's been good so far. I feel really good about everything most of the time. It's like breathing fresh air again. The only part that bugs me is since I never hang out with anyone anymore, it gets kind of lonely. And being lonely makes me want to not be alone, even though I know it's way healthier for me for right now if I am.
And so, in conclusion, I got to waste ten minutes typing this. That's ten minutes of excrutiating boredom narrowly averted. Fantastic.
Ok now that I'm slightly more under control, main thoughts. I love massage school. It's fun, there are great people there, I feel like I'm learning a good way to genuinely help people out. I can't help regretting going sometimes though. I mean, I REALLY wanna go get my own place...meaning live with some friends somewhere. Because I chose to go to massage school I really can't. And barring winning the lottery, it's put me in debt even longer. Though, to start off I'm looking at a pretty good wage. I could get my very own apartment somewhere decent if I wanted to. I definitely do NOT want to live by myself right now though. There's too much fun to be had and parties to throw and go to. And yes, I do plan to get a place with whomever wants to live with me come September, but I want out right now. I'm so fucking stir crazy.
In other news. I'm fucking retarded. I finally deleted Kati's phone # from my cell and her screennames. I can't help but think of that movie How High when I say that ("I'm taking you off my buddy list bitch!"). But I finally got some more closure, which I needed. I mean it's been like 8 months-ish. This should not have bothered me for so long, but that relationship fucked me up. I think I like the prospect of actually not having a girlfriend. It's been fun, but it's been weighing on my mind anyway for so long, I just haven't been interested in seeing other girls or anything. Anyway, it's been good so far. I feel really good about everything most of the time. It's like breathing fresh air again. The only part that bugs me is since I never hang out with anyone anymore, it gets kind of lonely. And being lonely makes me want to not be alone, even though I know it's way healthier for me for right now if I am.
And so, in conclusion, I got to waste ten minutes typing this. That's ten minutes of excrutiating boredom narrowly averted. Fantastic.