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It's back to work today. I feel a bit better about everything now. I talked to Joe last night and I talked to Justin the night before and of course I've talked to my girls. I've also decided to fill out my FASFA because I may be going back to school in the fall to get my degree in history, mostly because I don't know what else to do with myself, but partly because I can't let it go. I'm gonna pull a Tiemeyer and walk twice for undergrad, haha.
There is still a kind of mask over everything, like it's just a joke that I'm really actually finally done. I think I also feel that way because as happy as I am to be done I honestly don't know what to do without school, without my friends, without freaking out about homework and shit. I have no one to live for, but myself - whatever the hell that means, and myself needs to stay occupied. So I think until I have some one to make dinner for and tuck into bed I'm going to keep going to school. It makes me feel useful.
I think I'm going to put in an app at Schuler's... but I don't think I look smart enough to work there. We'll see, if I'm going back to school I need to make as much money as I can this summer and get some stuff paid off.
Speaking of, I'd better go get ready for work!
There is still a kind of mask over everything, like it's just a joke that I'm really actually finally done. I think I also feel that way because as happy as I am to be done I honestly don't know what to do without school, without my friends, without freaking out about homework and shit. I have no one to live for, but myself - whatever the hell that means, and myself needs to stay occupied. So I think until I have some one to make dinner for and tuck into bed I'm going to keep going to school. It makes me feel useful.
I think I'm going to put in an app at Schuler's... but I don't think I look smart enough to work there. We'll see, if I'm going back to school I need to make as much money as I can this summer and get some stuff paid off.
Speaking of, I'd better go get ready for work!