in the end

[not_ur_gurl]

ive confessed....ive hurt. i cant do this anymore. im going insane trying to find my way out. there is no way out. when i closed my door, i forgot to open my window. how else do i put it? this is simple, but i dont understand it. he tells me i can escape it, but how can i? its like whatever i choose, i choose wrong. if i let gim see me, i hurt another. if i dont and i leave, i hurt another person. there is no way out here. im leaving in like 4 months or so unless things get better for me. i wish they would, but i cant be this person anymore. ive changed..believe me, but i cant be who you want me to be, unless its within reason. i cant stay because you say everything will be alright. i have to see the things change around me and see that they will be alright. i have to see that you are not blind. i need to believe that you see her changing for you. show me the person you are. show me your true colors.

marilyn