We Never Used To Get Anything Done

[not_the_norm16]

I want bones like iron, blood like mercury, so I can tell you when I'm rising and when I'm sinking in.

I think I could spend eternity in that car, traveling a little over the speed limit, sitting somewhere between David and Sean, Dispatch blasting so loud that you can feel it in your soul, with both the boys singing their hearts out.

I think I could spend eternity in that room, up in the small apartment in your backyard, your thumb on my back, your hand on mine.

I wish we could silence our phones, throw out our technology, and go back in time. I wish we could want to. I wish we could love like normal people, or love at all. I wish we wanted more than what we are content with right now.

I think I could spend eternity remembering.

But I know this is a waste of my time.

D is coming into town this weekend. We are not going to see each other. I miss him, but I shouldn't, and with time maybe I'll be able to throw out that little green piece of plastic and all of those memories.

I had a crazy dream about Dakota, but it wasn't enough to keep me from losing a little bit of faith in him.

Fuck, I miss the past, but I think I love who I'm becoming.

I'll stick loneliness, your lips, and the two coins of your eyes into my pockets.