update.
I dropped out/took the rest of the semester off/took a break this fall. However you want to look at it= I dropped all my classes. I did this for two reasons:
-My mental health.
-Financially I couldn't stay in classes.
My mental health is getting better. Its a expensive process because my counselor is.
I don't know if I'm ready to go back.
I still don't know what I want to do with my life.
Financially I'm still really broke.
I owe a TON on my credit card, I can't even make the minimum balance anymore.
I got a new job at a dry-cleaners, which i hope to be full time, but I'm only making $7.40 an hour. If you do the math it hardly adds up to..........anything.
I got a letter the other day letting me know I owe almost $3000 dollars before I can even register because I dropped out and I have to repay my Stafford loan.
SO that brings me to my current situation.
I don't have $3000 dollars. Nor does anyone that I know that could help me. Dad thinks we can get it paid and all will be fine, but it won't get paid soon enough to get into any classes.
I moved all the way to Ypsi, to go to school.
I moved allllll my stuff out here in a great apartment that has expensive rent, but it wouldn't get much cheaper anywhere else, for what it provides.
If I don't go to school this winter, I have moved out here for NOTHING.
I have wasted THOUSANDS from taking 7 weeks of classes (give or take).
It was a mistake to move here, register, etc.
I have learned a HUGE and very hard lesson about college.
On the other hand, how was I supposed to know this is how it was going to be.
I can't help but to be mad and blame myself though.
I'm really depressed about this.
I don't know what I'll do.
To break my lease and return to Jackson sounds all well and good, but thats a couple/few more thousand.
I'd get an apartment and a job. For how long though? Would I just be back here next fall, and break another year lease? Is it worth it?
OR IS THIS THE END OF MY SCHOOL CAREER?
If I don't go back this January, I strongly feel like this will be the end of my attempt of a degree for a long time. It'd be silly to go to Jackson and start a life, just to end it and turn around and go back to school next August.
What is there for me in Jackson though? Not a lot.
I'm in a slump of confusion and really just want to give up on everything.
I really wish I had a serious boyfriend who would seriously like to marry. I'd be down with taking a couple years off to start a family. I don't have one though. Well, I have Luke but that is VERY far from serious. It'd just be convenient is all I'm saying.
Well, thats my update. I'm working 40 hours a week soon I hope and still looking for a night stock job of some sort. Maybe work for this in-home care company Suzanne is trying to help me get into. Maybe sometime next year I'll break even with my bills.
I hope all is well with the rest of you.
Love you all.
Calley Denae
-My mental health.
-Financially I couldn't stay in classes.
My mental health is getting better. Its a expensive process because my counselor is.
I don't know if I'm ready to go back.
I still don't know what I want to do with my life.
Financially I'm still really broke.
I owe a TON on my credit card, I can't even make the minimum balance anymore.
I got a new job at a dry-cleaners, which i hope to be full time, but I'm only making $7.40 an hour. If you do the math it hardly adds up to..........anything.
I got a letter the other day letting me know I owe almost $3000 dollars before I can even register because I dropped out and I have to repay my Stafford loan.
SO that brings me to my current situation.
I don't have $3000 dollars. Nor does anyone that I know that could help me. Dad thinks we can get it paid and all will be fine, but it won't get paid soon enough to get into any classes.
I moved all the way to Ypsi, to go to school.
I moved allllll my stuff out here in a great apartment that has expensive rent, but it wouldn't get much cheaper anywhere else, for what it provides.
If I don't go to school this winter, I have moved out here for NOTHING.
I have wasted THOUSANDS from taking 7 weeks of classes (give or take).
It was a mistake to move here, register, etc.
I have learned a HUGE and very hard lesson about college.
On the other hand, how was I supposed to know this is how it was going to be.
I can't help but to be mad and blame myself though.
I'm really depressed about this.
I don't know what I'll do.
To break my lease and return to Jackson sounds all well and good, but thats a couple/few more thousand.
I'd get an apartment and a job. For how long though? Would I just be back here next fall, and break another year lease? Is it worth it?
OR IS THIS THE END OF MY SCHOOL CAREER?
If I don't go back this January, I strongly feel like this will be the end of my attempt of a degree for a long time. It'd be silly to go to Jackson and start a life, just to end it and turn around and go back to school next August.
What is there for me in Jackson though? Not a lot.
I'm in a slump of confusion and really just want to give up on everything.
I really wish I had a serious boyfriend who would seriously like to marry. I'd be down with taking a couple years off to start a family. I don't have one though. Well, I have Luke but that is VERY far from serious. It'd just be convenient is all I'm saying.
Well, thats my update. I'm working 40 hours a week soon I hope and still looking for a night stock job of some sort. Maybe work for this in-home care company Suzanne is trying to help me get into. Maybe sometime next year I'll break even with my bills.
I hope all is well with the rest of you.
Love you all.
Calley Denae