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so its been a while yet again... i have two completely different things to type (this is just a self-reminder msg)..
so today is labor day. i had my audition for orchestra at 1130, lunch with the fam at 12, then ran by the chickens to see kiel. gr. dumb kid is suspended 3 days for cussing at a teacher. i fear he will never learn. he's back to wanting to be a cardiovascular surgeon. pfffttt... he's smart enough, but his mouth get's him into SO much trouble. he also told me he'd quit smoking, but smoked while i was there. he also told me he'd skipped 3 days of school already this semester. school only started two weeks ago! granted, i know he is a show off and loves to brag, but some of it really is true. he has been smoking since he was 13. supposedly he wants to go out for football next year, so he's gonna quit.. but as i've told him for the longest time: i'll believe it when i see it. so he and i were sitting outside talking to grandpa chicken.. and grandpa said he only wanted to live 3 more years (til he's 77). i really wasn't paying much attention, just chatting with him about it.. then i had to leave for work. i went in and found kiel watching tv. i asked him why he'd run off when i'd come to visit. he got very shifty and said he doesn't like talk about death. i have never seen him act that way. he was like a beaten puppy. i guess that it didn't bother me that grandpa was talking about dying because i know its something he/anyone really controls themselves. i mean, sure, he could want to only live 3 more years, but he could also live to be 100 or die tomorrow. who's to say? so yea... kiel's freaking out kinda taught me something. though i'm not totally calm about death (i mean i think u'd have to be a mortician if you were) i am not freaked out by the thought. and talking about it really isn't much of a problem either. i mean... i guess i just realize that it's inevitable and he doesn't want to face it. he could also be messed up b/c he was really close to our uncle that died when kiel was 5 from AIDS. i'm not sure, but w/e it is, i'm thankful that i have been raised in an atmosphere and faith that doesn't shun death or think of it as an end. i'm thankful for the peace.. yeah.
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so other things that i haven't updated about.
-went to Chicago w/ Judah, Shane and K
-it was SO great!
-K about killed my car while we were there
-Got to see Sarah while we were there!!
-she introduced us to the L and Belmont
-we didn't get home until 430a and i had to work 6a-11a
-i spent last M-TH w/ k doing random things together
-k moved into college
-Pam from work, left (made flat cookies for her party)
-special meetings started at church
-gram's best friend, Wava died
-gramps had a bad spell where he was really confused again
-i had to work all through the meetings (F-M 230-11p)
-i went to dad's backyard pit for a mini bbq at 12am
-i did make it to the church pitch-in though
-i hung out more w/ the life-longs(i love them)
-participated in a carry-in w/ 3W thanks to Paula
-i had an audition that went meeahhhh
-my back is still pretty messed up/i can't drive far w/o pain
-mom wants me to start therapy for it
-i don't want to
-i saw kiel today
-i'm at work right now
-my labor day has been filled w/ labor
-i'm not too busy (knock on wood)
-i start classes tomorrow
-tonight will be spent home alone again
yea. the. end.
so today is labor day. i had my audition for orchestra at 1130, lunch with the fam at 12, then ran by the chickens to see kiel. gr. dumb kid is suspended 3 days for cussing at a teacher. i fear he will never learn. he's back to wanting to be a cardiovascular surgeon. pfffttt... he's smart enough, but his mouth get's him into SO much trouble. he also told me he'd quit smoking, but smoked while i was there. he also told me he'd skipped 3 days of school already this semester. school only started two weeks ago! granted, i know he is a show off and loves to brag, but some of it really is true. he has been smoking since he was 13. supposedly he wants to go out for football next year, so he's gonna quit.. but as i've told him for the longest time: i'll believe it when i see it. so he and i were sitting outside talking to grandpa chicken.. and grandpa said he only wanted to live 3 more years (til he's 77). i really wasn't paying much attention, just chatting with him about it.. then i had to leave for work. i went in and found kiel watching tv. i asked him why he'd run off when i'd come to visit. he got very shifty and said he doesn't like talk about death. i have never seen him act that way. he was like a beaten puppy. i guess that it didn't bother me that grandpa was talking about dying because i know its something he/anyone really controls themselves. i mean, sure, he could want to only live 3 more years, but he could also live to be 100 or die tomorrow. who's to say? so yea... kiel's freaking out kinda taught me something. though i'm not totally calm about death (i mean i think u'd have to be a mortician if you were) i am not freaked out by the thought. and talking about it really isn't much of a problem either. i mean... i guess i just realize that it's inevitable and he doesn't want to face it. he could also be messed up b/c he was really close to our uncle that died when kiel was 5 from AIDS. i'm not sure, but w/e it is, i'm thankful that i have been raised in an atmosphere and faith that doesn't shun death or think of it as an end. i'm thankful for the peace.. yeah.
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so other things that i haven't updated about.
-went to Chicago w/ Judah, Shane and K
-it was SO great!
-K about killed my car while we were there
-Got to see Sarah while we were there!!
-she introduced us to the L and Belmont
-we didn't get home until 430a and i had to work 6a-11a
-i spent last M-TH w/ k doing random things together
-k moved into college
-Pam from work, left (made flat cookies for her party)
-special meetings started at church
-gram's best friend, Wava died
-gramps had a bad spell where he was really confused again
-i had to work all through the meetings (F-M 230-11p)
-i went to dad's backyard pit for a mini bbq at 12am
-i did make it to the church pitch-in though
-i hung out more w/ the life-longs(i love them)
-participated in a carry-in w/ 3W thanks to Paula
-i had an audition that went meeahhhh
-my back is still pretty messed up/i can't drive far w/o pain
-mom wants me to start therapy for it
-i don't want to
-i saw kiel today
-i'm at work right now
-my labor day has been filled w/ labor
-i'm not too busy (knock on wood)
-i start classes tomorrow
-tonight will be spent home alone again
yea. the. end.