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im not sure how long this'll be...so i'll cut it to be safe...
Ok so i "moved in with chirs" i say that in little " " marks because i still spend one/two nights at my mum n dads a week due to my tafe corse and work.
Any way...in my intro i put long trm relationship/impending engagement. i put impending becuase i kinda know chirs has a ring...as about near on 12 months ago we walked into a jewlwers, me with the intention of getting ear rings because they had a sale on...but we ended up looking at the engagement/briadal set rings - chirs then dissapered for 20-25mins after we left the shop and bought me back choccies...i found out...3 or so months ago he did infact buy some sort of ring out of the two i fell in love with...i found the ring box while we where moving becuase i was unpacking a box...(that wasnt the one he said i couldnt look at! HA!) and gave it to him and told him to hide it again...then whilest re-arrangeing some draws to fit some of my stuff into i found it again and he gave up...and left it in his bed side table draw!....now that was fine untill last weekend when we where all snuggled up and he told me to shut my eyes and cover my head...i used a pillow becuase i couldnt peak...he tried on the ring...and it didnt fit (and i didnt see it eather *GRUMP!!!!* and he's getting it re-sized...now thats all well and good...it makes me all *Grizzle* because i know its going to happen soon BUT i dont know...when as such (i know its ment to be a supprise n all...) and i also know he wants to talk to my mum n dad before he does it (becuase i told them i was moving out when promped and kinda a put on the spot with mum...and he wants to make sure its all good...and they know...
my point?
how the hell did/have any of you delt with knowing something like that is coming? i know im like Ganah! i dont know when/where or anything. all i know is i want it to happen...but im worried cus in my life i dont have any real close female friends...and a lady im at TAFE with...who i thought was supportive told me flat out the other week that i shouldnt get married untill im over 21 becuase im "too young" which annoys me. but then again she had a bad experance with being married and devorced...
the best thing about today though? its out 18 months. *dance* i guess im happy that we've made it this far...and you know something? i think i've found my soulmate and the one human i cant see myself with out...talking about family with chirs is the only time in any of my relationships that feels like its right...and i feel like i'm beautiful with chirs...plus in the 18 months we've been together i've gotten better at dealing with my depression!
...that was long after all...Have a wonderful day/night/morning where ever you may be in the world!!!
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Ok so i "moved in with chirs" i say that in little " " marks because i still spend one/two nights at my mum n dads a week due to my tafe corse and work.
Any way...in my intro i put long trm relationship/impending engagement. i put impending becuase i kinda know chirs has a ring...as about near on 12 months ago we walked into a jewlwers, me with the intention of getting ear rings because they had a sale on...but we ended up looking at the engagement/briadal set rings - chirs then dissapered for 20-25mins after we left the shop and bought me back choccies...i found out...3 or so months ago he did infact buy some sort of ring out of the two i fell in love with...i found the ring box while we where moving becuase i was unpacking a box...(that wasnt the one he said i couldnt look at! HA!) and gave it to him and told him to hide it again...then whilest re-arrangeing some draws to fit some of my stuff into i found it again and he gave up...and left it in his bed side table draw!....now that was fine untill last weekend when we where all snuggled up and he told me to shut my eyes and cover my head...i used a pillow becuase i couldnt peak...he tried on the ring...and it didnt fit (and i didnt see it eather *GRUMP!!!!* and he's getting it re-sized...now thats all well and good...it makes me all *Grizzle* because i know its going to happen soon BUT i dont know...when as such (i know its ment to be a supprise n all...) and i also know he wants to talk to my mum n dad before he does it (becuase i told them i was moving out when promped and kinda a put on the spot with mum...and he wants to make sure its all good...and they know...
my point?
how the hell did/have any of you delt with knowing something like that is coming? i know im like Ganah! i dont know when/where or anything. all i know is i want it to happen...but im worried cus in my life i dont have any real close female friends...and a lady im at TAFE with...who i thought was supportive told me flat out the other week that i shouldnt get married untill im over 21 becuase im "too young" which annoys me. but then again she had a bad experance with being married and devorced...
the best thing about today though? its out 18 months. *dance* i guess im happy that we've made it this far...and you know something? i think i've found my soulmate and the one human i cant see myself with out...talking about family with chirs is the only time in any of my relationships that feels like its right...and i feel like i'm beautiful with chirs...plus in the 18 months we've been together i've gotten better at dealing with my depression!
...that was long after all...Have a wonderful day/night/morning where ever you may be in the world!!!
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