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Nineteen days since I broke my finger...I really want this splint off. It makes doing two handed things annoying, and we'll need more cooking firewood soon. Oh, and Vaati'll be away and resting his chip sickness out for a week or so.
No one try and take down any more of the mistletoe in the house! It only doubles in it's place. What annoying weeds. I hope Yorda's feeling better.
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Iroh says my anger's been blocking up chi and making me too tense to move well at practice, so before the darkness starts taking charge again, I should try and put my feelings down somewhere and sort them out and let them go, the ones I can't do anything about.
I don't want to let go of what she means. I make promises for good reasons, and just because she's gone doesn't mean the memory goes too.
...The house feels different, without Namine here. Not that she was ever very loud or anything, or took up much space, but.... I found her sketchbooks, and hung some of her best ones up. Don't think she'd mind. I hope that she's somewhere safe, wherever she is. Maybe she went to be with Kairi again. I wish she'd been happier here, being her own person. Haseo was probably right. I didn't just talk to her enough.
This isn't my fault, that this happened! That scientist was just lying to piss me off. This was a safe house. I can't just drag her everywhere I go. I can't just...not go away for a few minutes and be afraid people are going to disappear. I don't mind living here, but if I find a way to find her again, and bring her back, maybe, I'd go. The sword hasn't been pointing me anywhere in particular.
Its like we're their toys and experiments again. I hate that. I hate that. I'm so glad I have their stupid chip out! I'll keep deciding things for myself, making my own way...
Sometimes though it feels useless, doing so much here, making friends, and knowing they can leave just like that. Sokka's gone again, and it even feels weird without Endrance right across the way. Ness is a really good new fit for Gohl, and Umi's...been spending less and less time at the house. I guess its good for her to keep busy making food for the restaurant and...hanging out with girls or something. She's the only girl here now, and it must be weird for her.
I should really go over to Latimir sometime, and see how Riku and Sora are getting by. It's been almost a year now, since I got kicked out of there? Huh. Time goes by quick. I guess that means I've been me for almost a year now, too.
No one try and take down any more of the mistletoe in the house! It only doubles in it's place. What annoying weeds. I hope Yorda's feeling better.
[Private, but not locked.]
Iroh says my anger's been blocking up chi and making me too tense to move well at practice, so before the darkness starts taking charge again, I should try and put my feelings down somewhere and sort them out and let them go, the ones I can't do anything about.
I don't want to let go of what she means. I make promises for good reasons, and just because she's gone doesn't mean the memory goes too.
...The house feels different, without Namine here. Not that she was ever very loud or anything, or took up much space, but.... I found her sketchbooks, and hung some of her best ones up. Don't think she'd mind. I hope that she's somewhere safe, wherever she is. Maybe she went to be with Kairi again. I wish she'd been happier here, being her own person. Haseo was probably right. I didn't just talk to her enough.
This isn't my fault, that this happened! That scientist was just lying to piss me off. This was a safe house. I can't just drag her everywhere I go. I can't just...not go away for a few minutes and be afraid people are going to disappear. I don't mind living here, but if I find a way to find her again, and bring her back, maybe, I'd go. The sword hasn't been pointing me anywhere in particular.
Its like we're their toys and experiments again. I hate that. I hate that. I'm so glad I have their stupid chip out! I'll keep deciding things for myself, making my own way...
Sometimes though it feels useless, doing so much here, making friends, and knowing they can leave just like that. Sokka's gone again, and it even feels weird without Endrance right across the way. Ness is a really good new fit for Gohl, and Umi's...been spending less and less time at the house. I guess its good for her to keep busy making food for the restaurant and...hanging out with girls or something. She's the only girl here now, and it must be weird for her.
I should really go over to Latimir sometime, and see how Riku and Sora are getting by. It's been almost a year now, since I got kicked out of there? Huh. Time goes by quick. I guess that means I've been me for almost a year now, too.