life is like a bowl of cherries
psh..rotten cherries. Nah life is going pretty A-OK right now. Vince has been a lot nicer to me, i hardly ever have to yell at him anymore. Work is cool, today i honestly read a book the whole time. I just have to work when it gets busy, but it hardly ever does. The baby is getting huge. Tomorrow he'll be 4 months. its going by too fast. I cant believe it. 4 months....geeze, im going to be so sad the day he moves out and starts his own life. God, i dont even want to think about it.I wish i could just pick him up and stop time. I want to hold him forever. Sometimes when i get home at night, even if he's already asleep, i'll pick him up and hold him. The times he wakes up, he'll just look at me and smile. There is nothing in the world that makes me feel better. NOTHING. I cant believe i never wanted kids. He's the best thing thats ever happened to me. I cant imagine my life w/o him. Vince and i are thinking about getting married next fall. I hope he really wants to marry me. I love him, i put everything i have into this relationship, every day. It gets rocky, but every once in a while he does something so nice, or says something i didn't expect and it makes up for everything else. He isn't good at showing his emotions..well he's good at showing anger, but i know deep down he's sweet as hell,and sometimes he lets it slip out and it totally makes me fall in love with him all over again. ugh, im such a sap. alright im going to bed.