im lost
I am wiggin so bad Brians at court and I have to be to school at 9 and i wish I didnt but i do and i wish i could just talk to him i miss him so much and its been less then 12 hours sense i last saw him i wish i knew what was going on i wish he didnt have to go through this but he does because his friends are assholes and dont think ever i love them all but gawd why did they do that would true friends really do that? i donno i guess thats somethingi m going to have to deal with but i wish i could just save him like make him go in the right direction and think about consiquences like i do im so scared and dont know what to do and iv never wanted to do something more then i do right now i just cant take my life right now its to hard and i dont want to do it anymore if byrdie goes to jail thats the end i donno if he ever realized it but hes the reason i go on and make the right choices to try and show him the right way be a real friend to him and help him instead of push him the wrong way he needs a friend like that because his girlfriend is about to get fired from that job because hes going the wrong way i thought i had him going the right way til yesterday when he broke that window i really lost it there it made me so sick to see him turn his ways he was doing so good i was so proud now i feel like im loseing it i cant stop this damn crying i keep trying to get a grip but i cant im scared for once im truely scared and dont know what to do to make anything better i dont know which way to turn im a freakin idiot