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I dont understand why I try so hard when the one person I try hard for will never care enough to see it. Why do I try to smile when its just going to turn over? Im not good enough nothing ill ever do will ever be good enough, no one will ever look at me the same way as I look at them and stick around long enough for me to say something I mean...You want me to open up well then look at me long enough for me to start talking and when I do as iv done so many times dont get up to help someone else I need someone to actually listen and not cut me off...I just dont understand what have I done to deserve this..Why do you feel the way you do? and leave me at points where I need you? I love you...