3 months <3 i love you
3 Months Today <3333333 I love you so much josh, more than you'll ever understand. You never cease to amaze me...you manage to turn my darkest days bright. Thank you for being mine =)....i love you
Yesterday woke up at heathers...waited for kevin and josh...they finally came =P and we ate. yummm. then we watched in & out...good movie. um headed up to cas and betty's...its so perfect up there. the horses. the water. the hammock. the beautiful pink flowers. the sweet dogs. the way the soft rain silently hits the water. i'd love to live there. unfortunately i dont...and never will. but its just nice to visit at the least. my mom and i then proceeded to get in an argument. i dont understand her anymore. its like shes forgotten im alive. and when i am around. she ridicules me...or somehow degrades me. i dont understand it. maybe its her own subconcious retaliating against me for not being home as much. but its summer. i want to be with my friends and my boyfriend...i dont see how that is so wrong. whatever the case maybe, shes pushing me away, closing the door to my heart, and throwing away her key................anway...i worked last night. it wasnt bad. not too busy. not too slow. i got off arouns 845. it was Judson Davis and Grahms last night, so after work i first went to joshs, then to their house to round them all up to go to the movie with us (king arthur, i reccomend if you liked Braveheart, or any other historical war movie. if you didnt like those, you'll hate it). so they came with us. but didnt sit with us. i didnt understand. oh well. said my goodbyes. i probably wont see them in a loong time. its sad to think about...came home with heather. we talked and ate clam chowder. then zonked out mid conversation. somehow that always seems to happen. lol. this morning woke up...called my mom...she knows exactly how to break my heart. called josh...he's on his way...thank god for him. i dont know wat we are doing today. i just like spending days with him...not really having to do anything spectacular.
I guess thats about it for now! -L
i love you josh <3
PS. I LOVE YOU KEVIN!!!