Discharged!!! 😄
Omg! I was finally discharged!!! 83 days of hell!!! Things definitely improved once i got over to H floor. (Thats the mental health eating disorders ward). I gained a total of 16 freaken kgs!!! (35.2 pounds). Beyond ridiculous! Of course ive already started losing, but the hospital has now told my dr that they want her to be weighing me weekly. She knows im totally against it, so she said she'll only do it monthly, (thankgod). But she knows how fast i can lose...i have been seeing her once or twice a week now for 11 years.
I lied my ass off in there to get out. "How are you coping today Rachel." Me - "yeah im doing fine today" i say with a 'im-ok' smile on my face. The scary thing is that they totally believed my lies! I mean seriously?! Arent they ment to be trained to know when were lying to them?! It was my psychologist and dr who told me that they believed i was doing really well. They were surprised too at how well i must have lied for them to have believed that. (Tho i have been doing this since i was 6 yrs old and im now 30)
The dietition Emma thinks im having 5 x Resource 2.0 Suppliment drinks a day! (475 cals, 237mls and 20 grams of fat EACH)!!! Like HELL!!!
Im going back to hospital tomorrow to visit 2 friends i made in there. One of the girls came in with a BMI of 10.5!!! Im not kidding!!! I thought my lowest BMI of 13 was scary low but 10.5. (She was AMAZING to look at....pure bones....god i want that!)
Im going to read your entries soon. I have an appointment now.
Take care everybody!
I lied my ass off in there to get out. "How are you coping today Rachel." Me - "yeah im doing fine today" i say with a 'im-ok' smile on my face. The scary thing is that they totally believed my lies! I mean seriously?! Arent they ment to be trained to know when were lying to them?! It was my psychologist and dr who told me that they believed i was doing really well. They were surprised too at how well i must have lied for them to have believed that. (Tho i have been doing this since i was 6 yrs old and im now 30)
The dietition Emma thinks im having 5 x Resource 2.0 Suppliment drinks a day! (475 cals, 237mls and 20 grams of fat EACH)!!! Like HELL!!!
Im going back to hospital tomorrow to visit 2 friends i made in there. One of the girls came in with a BMI of 10.5!!! Im not kidding!!! I thought my lowest BMI of 13 was scary low but 10.5. (She was AMAZING to look at....pure bones....god i want that!)
Im going to read your entries soon. I have an appointment now.
Take care everybody!