I am so fucking sick...it sux to the max
Tried to talk to marvin last night about how I feel...one sided blah blah...you could call me more or come see me more...its always me...I am sick so I came of bitchy apparently...it just became a huge fight. I guess we are good now...i called him at 8 o'clock this morning just to tell him I am sick beyond beleif and that he should leave work and bring me a cold bottle of water...Drive an hour to give you water He says....well also to massage my back and cuddle because I am massively sore and pathetic and want to feel needed when I am sick. my brain keeps going half retarded. I might have the flu or strep throat...leaning toward the flu with the dizziness and such...i dunno. Doctor's appointment on Tuesday...should find out all about it then. i'm drinking peach black tea...not very fast mind you. I'm freezing...but i have a fever so i dunno...i want to go back to bed...my mom said i can come over and she will take care of me. I love that woman. I want to go to Ft Walton and have marvin take care of me. but driving that in this condition would be dangerous. Maybe he will come out here tonight...he could meet the mom...i dunno how he feels about that lol. SO TIRED! It probably doesn't help that I got drunk last night...I drove home...Mom is a little upset about that... too bad whatever. Started smoking again...the idea makes me want to gag...probably will give pack away...ew. OK BYE.