actually.... it was a bad idea
this journal has become rather fake and I never wanted it to be this way. So I'm closing it down (ie not writing in it anymore)
I'm keeping the journal "alive" so I can read my friends' entries but I'm not writing here anymore. Too many expectations and too many preconceptions about what I'm "supposed" to do here. I changed my tune plenty of times to accomodate others and recently I was telling myself yet again what I could and could not say here.
That just tears it. I've restricted myself into a corner and I hate it here.
Lastly, I've held onto the fervent belief that people are far more complex and intricate than you can realize by just reading their words. But apparently that belief is a minority opinion and I'm tired of fighting that fight. Online is a place where people become the words they write and nothing more; no nuance, no subtlety, no shades and nothing beneath the surface of what you're told. Debate has become so literal and simplistic and full of assumptions that I'm just done with it. The internet is a black and white world and I can't believe I've wasted so much time trying to find the grey.
I'm keeping the journal "alive" so I can read my friends' entries but I'm not writing here anymore. Too many expectations and too many preconceptions about what I'm "supposed" to do here. I changed my tune plenty of times to accomodate others and recently I was telling myself yet again what I could and could not say here.
That just tears it. I've restricted myself into a corner and I hate it here.
Lastly, I've held onto the fervent belief that people are far more complex and intricate than you can realize by just reading their words. But apparently that belief is a minority opinion and I'm tired of fighting that fight. Online is a place where people become the words they write and nothing more; no nuance, no subtlety, no shades and nothing beneath the surface of what you're told. Debate has become so literal and simplistic and full of assumptions that I'm just done with it. The internet is a black and white world and I can't believe I've wasted so much time trying to find the grey.