fyi

[not_at_home]

i do read your live journal posts, but i dont always feel like i have something wonderful to say. i am not articulate like you. all i can offer to you is a hug and a listening ear. i wish you were able to come home more often, because i miss you! i wont even try to pretend i understand what you are going through, buti understand destructive

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passing thoughts

[neontink]

I know the feeling. Sometimes you want to comment, the equivalent of a nod in face-to-face conversation, but you can't come up with anything that sounds...right. I feel bad for not making more of an effort to see you, especially since I've been blessed in your friendship again. I can't offer any real explaination, only that it isn't personal. I have this quandary with almost all of my close friends. I truly want to see you, and spend time with you...but other stresses seem to always take priority. (whether I really want them to or not.) I'm having an endoscopy tomorrow morning, so hopefully they'll see what is wrong with my stomach. Ryan is doing great, and after this week we will have passed over some worrisome bumps in the road.

I don't really know what else to say. Just know that I pray for you and yours, and that I'm not avoiding you or anything on purpose. I have to admit, I feel uncomfortable outside of my home or Ryan's. I'm not afraid to leave, I just prefer to be where I'm comfortable. I guess when something stressful comes along, I want to be in private. (I shouldn't live my life like this...making myself stay home just in case something bad happens.)

I love you, take care of you!

Re: passing thoughts

[not_at_home]

heartfelt and understood. you have the gift of being honest, even if it sucks.

praying that your procedure turns a good result!

see you soon?