Today.
I got to interpret for a woman in labor today and then watch as she had her baby. It was incredible. She had a beautiful little girl. I love being able to help like that and be able to talk to both of the parents. It's...wonderful.
Then I went to see a very, very old friend in a nursing home. Because I suck I haven't been to see him since I went to Queens. I saw his wife every Sunday that I was home at church, and she would go and spend all day with him every day until she fell last week and shattered the end of her femur. So she's at Pardee and I stopped in to see her 2 days ago. She begged me to help her out of bed and to go get Gus (her husband) and was so confused and crying and didn't know what had happened and got so mad at me when I wouldn't help her out of bed. She'll be non-weight bearing for at least a month. So Mom and Ashley and I went to see Gus. Of course he didn't recognize us, why would he? Alzheimers and Parkinsons have taken their toll and I wonder if he would recognize me if I had come on the weekends that I was home from Queens. I don't know if us going made a difference to him at all. I would like to go back and see him again before I go back to Queens while Kathy is still in the hospital, but to what end? Would it make a difference to him, or would it only be me making myself feel better? When he doesn't know who is near him or what's going on how can you help? Once you've been forgotten there's really no way to get that back. I guess I need to decide whether or not my motives of wanting to go back are purely selfish or not. My sister said "He sure looks worse since I've last seen him" and all I wanted to do was smack her because she hasn't seen him in the years that he's been in the nursing home. But then again, I stopped seeing him, so how hypocritical of me would that be? Dammit.
Then I went to see a very, very old friend in a nursing home. Because I suck I haven't been to see him since I went to Queens. I saw his wife every Sunday that I was home at church, and she would go and spend all day with him every day until she fell last week and shattered the end of her femur. So she's at Pardee and I stopped in to see her 2 days ago. She begged me to help her out of bed and to go get Gus (her husband) and was so confused and crying and didn't know what had happened and got so mad at me when I wouldn't help her out of bed. She'll be non-weight bearing for at least a month. So Mom and Ashley and I went to see Gus. Of course he didn't recognize us, why would he? Alzheimers and Parkinsons have taken their toll and I wonder if he would recognize me if I had come on the weekends that I was home from Queens. I don't know if us going made a difference to him at all. I would like to go back and see him again before I go back to Queens while Kathy is still in the hospital, but to what end? Would it make a difference to him, or would it only be me making myself feel better? When he doesn't know who is near him or what's going on how can you help? Once you've been forgotten there's really no way to get that back. I guess I need to decide whether or not my motives of wanting to go back are purely selfish or not. My sister said "He sure looks worse since I've last seen him" and all I wanted to do was smack her because she hasn't seen him in the years that he's been in the nursing home. But then again, I stopped seeing him, so how hypocritical of me would that be? Dammit.