Gone on thoughts
So lots of ideas running through my mind recently and I am, as usual, unable to make complete sense of them. I want to be a scholar, which means I need to work my ass off but do I have the drive to do so? I need to be my own person and find my own mind all over again. I thought I had done so when this last spring. I don't know how to make up my mind. It would be easier if I was confident enough to talk to those around me about these issues. How come everyone else seems to know what they want to do and who they want to be and I'm still learning about the world and can't make any decisions? There has got to be something that everyone else knows, that I don't. It's really a matter of functioning. How can I function in this world that I am so critical of? Where is my place? Everything is too simple and too complex.