things are shiny

[not_against_it]

i hate cleaning my room.

i love it when it is clean.

but cleaning.
especially deep cleaning.

gives me a headache.
seriously, i don't know where everything is supposed to go.
and i always want the ability to be more organized,
but i
suck at it

and so.

when i am faced with this type of cleaning.  everything is shiny.
everything is distracting.
a million things go through my head.
and a million things attract my eye.
like dirt.
like gillter.
like writting in lj. which i normally don't do.
like looking up astronomy picture of the day.

like picking up one lone sock and opening the drawer to put it in ... and then thinking i should probably clean the whole draw
and since i work from chaos in - i dump the contents of the drawer on the floor 
but
now where is everything supposed to go...
and eventually i just shove everything back in the drawer
i put scraps of paper and memories in random shoe boxes 
that get shoved back under the bed
and "important" papers get shoved back into 
random random files

damn

i really suck at organization.
i want 
shelves and storage everywhere...