meme
Snagged from wanderingsmith.
That meme where you attempt to answer basic questions about your life: You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.
1. First Name: Carla
2. Age: 23 (gonna be 24 this December)
3. Location: Rhode Island, USA
4. Occupation: Cook/part time student. I hate my job, because it's totally NOT my passion, and something I'm just doing to pay the bills and get me through school. I'm most passionate about writing and film, and I'm absolutely TERRIFIED of not being successful in life and being in a career I'll actually enjoy.
5. Partner: Non existent. Sent my last, most meaningful bf away just over a year ago now. I enjoy having time to myself, while at the same time missing having someone to just BE there sometimes, when you just need it. I push people away, I know that. I just can't stop doing it. x_0; I've never been in love, and I'm really scared of never finding love, 'cuz as much as I'd want it to be true, I seriously don't think that kind of love exists for everyone. I want to love and be loved, but also can't stand the idea of another person being immersed so fully into my life. I know, I'm pathetic.
6. Kids: Don't think so. As much as I've been swearing off kids for nearly my whole life, I think at some point I might actually really want to be a mother. It's weird, I know, considering my response to the above question. I'm strange like that. And I'm also scared of screwing the kid up. I mean, I barely have a handle on my own life, how the hell am I going to be responsible for someone else's?!
7. Brothers/Sisters: 1 older sister, and 1 *confirmed* half brother. I'm not really counting the others, 'cuz I've never met them. That's my father for you. *rolls eyes* My sister and I still fight, but we get along a hell of a lot better than when we were younger. I think it's mostly because she knows I can beat her up, now. XD She dare try to smack me anymore.
8. Pets: Murray the ball python, and Chance the beagle, aka The Bagel, aka the little monster. Chance is like my child, honestly. I love him to death and don't know what I'm ever going to do without him when his time comes. He's so lovable, even though he has serious bipolar moments. He's stubborn as hell, and is always getting into things. But that's a beagle for ya. He sleeps on my bed, and owns my life.
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
1. Work, 'cuz it takes up so much of my time, and causes so much stress.
2. School. It makes me feel like I'm actually doing something with my life, though I often feel like I'm wasting time and money 'cuz I'm not smart enough to do what I want.
3. Writing. This is my passion. I do it every day, whether it's writing down 5 words or 1000. I love to write, and learn new things about writing, and improve, and hope to somehow integrate this into my future career.
10. Parents: Mom; I live with her, and we get along I guess. She and my sister butt heads a lot 'cuz they're so much alike, but it's also something that makes them closer, in a way. My Mom and I don't really talk much about anything personal. We're so different, it's hard to find something in common to discuss that's not work. Most of the time I feel like she just doesn't get me, but then I don't really think anyone does. Dad; is not involved in my life at all. My parents divorced when I was a year old, so I don't ever remember living with him. He wasn't a big part of my life growing up, and stopped bothering to try and even communicate with my sister and I as we grew older. The last time I saw him, I was 13, and he was dating a 20yr old, and they had a kid together. >_<
11. Who are some of your closest friends: I honestly think I don't really have any close friends anymore. There's no one I can really talk to, and I guess I have the same issue with having a boyfriend; I don't let people in. I only show people a little bit of myself, and I'm not sure there's anyone who knows the 'real' me anymore.
There's really one person who knows me really well, I think, and that would be my cousin. But even then I'm not so sure. I definitely act more like myself around him, and I find it kinda pathetic to consider him such a good friend, especially since he's 6 yrs younger than me. But then again, I've never 'acted my age,' however a 23/24 yr old is supposed to act. *shrugs* I really think I'm mentally far behind people my own age. x_0;
That meme where you attempt to answer basic questions about your life: You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.
1. First Name: Carla
2. Age: 23 (gonna be 24 this December)
3. Location: Rhode Island, USA
4. Occupation: Cook/part time student. I hate my job, because it's totally NOT my passion, and something I'm just doing to pay the bills and get me through school. I'm most passionate about writing and film, and I'm absolutely TERRIFIED of not being successful in life and being in a career I'll actually enjoy.
5. Partner: Non existent. Sent my last, most meaningful bf away just over a year ago now. I enjoy having time to myself, while at the same time missing having someone to just BE there sometimes, when you just need it. I push people away, I know that. I just can't stop doing it. x_0; I've never been in love, and I'm really scared of never finding love, 'cuz as much as I'd want it to be true, I seriously don't think that kind of love exists for everyone. I want to love and be loved, but also can't stand the idea of another person being immersed so fully into my life. I know, I'm pathetic.
6. Kids: Don't think so. As much as I've been swearing off kids for nearly my whole life, I think at some point I might actually really want to be a mother. It's weird, I know, considering my response to the above question. I'm strange like that. And I'm also scared of screwing the kid up. I mean, I barely have a handle on my own life, how the hell am I going to be responsible for someone else's?!
7. Brothers/Sisters: 1 older sister, and 1 *confirmed* half brother. I'm not really counting the others, 'cuz I've never met them. That's my father for you. *rolls eyes* My sister and I still fight, but we get along a hell of a lot better than when we were younger. I think it's mostly because she knows I can beat her up, now. XD She dare try to smack me anymore.
8. Pets: Murray the ball python, and Chance the beagle, aka The Bagel, aka the little monster. Chance is like my child, honestly. I love him to death and don't know what I'm ever going to do without him when his time comes. He's so lovable, even though he has serious bipolar moments. He's stubborn as hell, and is always getting into things. But that's a beagle for ya. He sleeps on my bed, and owns my life.
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
1. Work, 'cuz it takes up so much of my time, and causes so much stress.
2. School. It makes me feel like I'm actually doing something with my life, though I often feel like I'm wasting time and money 'cuz I'm not smart enough to do what I want.
3. Writing. This is my passion. I do it every day, whether it's writing down 5 words or 1000. I love to write, and learn new things about writing, and improve, and hope to somehow integrate this into my future career.
10. Parents: Mom; I live with her, and we get along I guess. She and my sister butt heads a lot 'cuz they're so much alike, but it's also something that makes them closer, in a way. My Mom and I don't really talk much about anything personal. We're so different, it's hard to find something in common to discuss that's not work. Most of the time I feel like she just doesn't get me, but then I don't really think anyone does. Dad; is not involved in my life at all. My parents divorced when I was a year old, so I don't ever remember living with him. He wasn't a big part of my life growing up, and stopped bothering to try and even communicate with my sister and I as we grew older. The last time I saw him, I was 13, and he was dating a 20yr old, and they had a kid together. >_<
11. Who are some of your closest friends: I honestly think I don't really have any close friends anymore. There's no one I can really talk to, and I guess I have the same issue with having a boyfriend; I don't let people in. I only show people a little bit of myself, and I'm not sure there's anyone who knows the 'real' me anymore.
There's really one person who knows me really well, I think, and that would be my cousin. But even then I'm not so sure. I definitely act more like myself around him, and I find it kinda pathetic to consider him such a good friend, especially since he's 6 yrs younger than me. But then again, I've never 'acted my age,' however a 23/24 yr old is supposed to act. *shrugs* I really think I'm mentally far behind people my own age. x_0;