It Fuckn Sux
Yesterday was so much fun. I went to my friend Gerladine's quinceanera and it was so kool. Plus I wasn't home since 12 pm...so awsome. Then I spent the day with Minerva at style express and the indoor then we came to my house and I just got Gerladine's present then went to Mini's house then to the party wich was the most fucking kool party I've been to. I danced too much then I saw a lot of my friends over there, so kool so sweet. I didn't even want to leave when it was already 11:15 yeah something like that but I had to because my daddy was going to pick us up and he needed to go to sleep so yeah. I also got sad and angry though because like as always the same thing over and over again I Don't Want My 15 In Mexico! Dammit and yesterday when Minerva left I started talking about it to my mom and she is like I'm sorry but we can't do anything but cancel it if you really aren't happy with it and I told her what I had thought before like since last month (even though maybe she didn't believe that I had thought it before my friends 15 but w/e). So yeah I was like okey so much money is being spent on this shit and I don't even really want it so what's the point like when someone talks about it I don't get excited or happy or anything I don't even look forward to it and in my mind on that day instead of it being one of the happiest days of my life I see it as being one of the mosr depressing because I'm almost sure that that day I would cry and not the happy kinda crying. So my mom told me I need to make a desicion and tell her if I want it to be canceled even if they have a lot of things ready already but I don't care really and I know no one is going to believe me! but oh well no problem. I can just bet that someone at least one person is going to think I'm a mala agradesida and I'm not mad at my parents just at the fact that it can't be here so oh well and I pretty much made my desicion now I'm telling my mom that I don't want it but first I want to talk with my friends about it and also my sister but I don't know if I'll be able to. I even started fucking crying yesterday, I cried my damn eyes out well till I went to sleep...Okey today it was kinda personal but I don't mind.