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I really feel sorry for Michael Jackson. He really had a very lonely life in a lot of ways. I know there are those that would say "screw him; he was a child molester." And yes maybe he was. But if you look at his childhood and his upbringing; would you expect anything but a screwed up adult with serious emotional damage and issues? If you think about it his childhood and adolescence was a perfect storm of dysfunction. He had an extremely strict and abusive father. His Jehovah Witness upbringing gave him so really fucked up views on life; relationships; and sex. And to top it all off (as just those two alone would have created a fucked up adult) he was thrust into super stardom from the age of nine.
I saw this documentary on him once that did a sort of psychoanalysis of him. They told this one story about how his brothers set him up with this girl so he could lose his virginity when he was a teenager. But he was afraid to even kiss her as he really and truly thought that sexual contact before marriage would land him in eternal damnation. There were stories in the documentary of him often fearfully praying and crying even over his impure urges. Given all the stresses in his life MJ reacted by seeking out the time in his life when things were simpler and life was happier: his childhood. Children and childhood comforted him. So he surrounding himself with children and childhood things. He reverted as much as he could into that child realm. So it is no wonder that children may have eventually become a sexual arousal point for him. I'm not justifying it or saying it is right; but one could see how feelings of safety and emotional pleasure while being around children could progress into physical pleasure. He may be innocent of actual molestation; but I would bet that the very least his interactions were probably inappropriate to say the least.
So that is why I say I feel sorry for him. He was a man with seemingly everything; but he was so emotionally damaged he could never properly enjoy it. He became the eccentric weirdo and eventually the hounded and hated (former) idol. He had few people if any every really understand him. (His best friend was a mouse for God's sake!) He could never find solace in a normal human adult relationship; and the people he did feel comfortable with, children, were in so many ways tabu and out of bounds. In short he was a lonely man in a lot of pain I think; and I can't help be feel sorry for him, and glad that he can now find peace.
I saw this documentary on him once that did a sort of psychoanalysis of him. They told this one story about how his brothers set him up with this girl so he could lose his virginity when he was a teenager. But he was afraid to even kiss her as he really and truly thought that sexual contact before marriage would land him in eternal damnation. There were stories in the documentary of him often fearfully praying and crying even over his impure urges. Given all the stresses in his life MJ reacted by seeking out the time in his life when things were simpler and life was happier: his childhood. Children and childhood comforted him. So he surrounding himself with children and childhood things. He reverted as much as he could into that child realm. So it is no wonder that children may have eventually become a sexual arousal point for him. I'm not justifying it or saying it is right; but one could see how feelings of safety and emotional pleasure while being around children could progress into physical pleasure. He may be innocent of actual molestation; but I would bet that the very least his interactions were probably inappropriate to say the least.
So that is why I say I feel sorry for him. He was a man with seemingly everything; but he was so emotionally damaged he could never properly enjoy it. He became the eccentric weirdo and eventually the hounded and hated (former) idol. He had few people if any every really understand him. (His best friend was a mouse for God's sake!) He could never find solace in a normal human adult relationship; and the people he did feel comfortable with, children, were in so many ways tabu and out of bounds. In short he was a lonely man in a lot of pain I think; and I can't help be feel sorry for him, and glad that he can now find peace.