the city cemetary's humming i'm wide awake it's morning
Nothing lasts forever if i could get that out of my head i'd remember that never is a word that's often dead.
and you thought i'd say said.
my mind has been up to no good lately. being that time of the month or just being my crazy self...
uncertainty has caused lack of happiness. i'm so sick of worrying if everything's going to be okay.
i'm so sick of wondering if i have a liar in my midst. i can't trust anyone because of my past and the whole knick fiasco... he sure did fuck me up good. oh and my mom and wah wah i know cry me a river... but really i'm sick of it.
is there a switch to turn off in my head? could someone help me find the 'trust' button?
words are never enough unless they are loving.
ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
i bought the sims 1 complete collection, a sweet red fall out boy hoodie that just came in the mail today but steven wants tonight... okay on a side note of that... haha will i ever get my armor hoodie back? i have his tv in my room and it's my hostage for all clothing exchange. oh and i bought a sweet coat from victoria's secret that will keep me warm in the winter.
i want scarfs.
i got a sidekick and now i want the new verizon phone or at least the juicy pink sidekick. stupid dumb phone.
i'm sick of being intimidated by steven's exes. they completely intimidate me. because i know they are better then me in some ways and worse then me in others. either way i'm always afraid who's going to creep back into his life next.
i took him from a girl and he took me from a boy... could the same thing not happen to us if kharma wanted it to? i'm not a big believer in the 'k' word these days.
love conquered my heart and it inspired my brain to be cynical.
ANYWAY. if you read this... leave a comment and tell me ways to trust.... i need them. bad.
one fucking love.
<3
and you thought i'd say said.
my mind has been up to no good lately. being that time of the month or just being my crazy self...
uncertainty has caused lack of happiness. i'm so sick of worrying if everything's going to be okay.
i'm so sick of wondering if i have a liar in my midst. i can't trust anyone because of my past and the whole knick fiasco... he sure did fuck me up good. oh and my mom and wah wah i know cry me a river... but really i'm sick of it.
is there a switch to turn off in my head? could someone help me find the 'trust' button?
words are never enough unless they are loving.
ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
i bought the sims 1 complete collection, a sweet red fall out boy hoodie that just came in the mail today but steven wants tonight... okay on a side note of that... haha will i ever get my armor hoodie back? i have his tv in my room and it's my hostage for all clothing exchange. oh and i bought a sweet coat from victoria's secret that will keep me warm in the winter.
i want scarfs.
i got a sidekick and now i want the new verizon phone or at least the juicy pink sidekick. stupid dumb phone.
i'm sick of being intimidated by steven's exes. they completely intimidate me. because i know they are better then me in some ways and worse then me in others. either way i'm always afraid who's going to creep back into his life next.
i took him from a girl and he took me from a boy... could the same thing not happen to us if kharma wanted it to? i'm not a big believer in the 'k' word these days.
love conquered my heart and it inspired my brain to be cynical.
ANYWAY. if you read this... leave a comment and tell me ways to trust.... i need them. bad.
one fucking love.
<3