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i can honestly say that i deeply miss ninth grade. i miss all my friends. i don't know who my friends are any more. it hurts so bad to see her...and him...and everybody. to know that they've moved on and i haven't, having to compete with their new friends...trying to be better than them in any way i can..not being able to see one of the greatest friends i have...i miss you mattie...i really do. i miss you more than i can express..i miss andre...i can't even look at him any more...i guess the plus is that i'm doing the best in school i ever have. but i'm a lot more irritable...i dunno whats with that. i know what insipid means. i hate saying something to someone and anticipating that they'll say it back...[ie i love you] and it doesn't happen. eh...
tomorrow's friday. b days...ugh
there are so many things i wish i could say to people...

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