Then there was time I...
I feel that I have abandoned everyone here. So, I feel a little guilty. But do not think because I have a girlfriend means I don't have anything to post, really I have hundreds of things to post. It's just that I can't seem to sit down and write it. I really need to get a few things straight.
Don't think wrong though, everything is OK. And generally I feel fine... so why did I write such a long mood in my mood status thingy? Because that is exactly how I have so many things going on in my head that it makes me feel so alive. And I have the joy of being with Marian and the problems we need to work out (like both learning how to kiss hahaha) and the pain my father's constant lying is giving, and each time I have to call him because the money isn't going through; with college work and exams just starting for all classes, with the "college life" which is really none since I don't party or anything and I just walk alone on the campus when I'm not in class; to my mom's annoying calls to the giant gap between our comunication, wherein she says one thing and I understand something else, or I tell her something and she doesn't even hear it. To each and every tragic moment that I am missing, to that beauty I rarely see anymore, and the longing to write and read for hours. All of this is going on in my life and though it's bothersome or whatnot I find it great that it makes me feel I am alive. To be honest very very few times have I felt like this, and I mean very few (no more than 3, to be exact).
I feel bad in the sense of the people I know. Of the people I read and of the people I play with. I miss them, very dearly, but then I think that this is the thing that always happens with the people I meet, they go away, but now it's diferent, I have gone away. Although not far I am still away. As go less and less to this computer, and the times I do it is to play World of Warcraft, which to some point I have left also. (though not as much).
I'm sorry to everyone in anyway. Know that I have not forgotten about you. Simply I am finally out of this damn chair which kept me ensanared for so long, that to some degree I am finally free from it. That I no longer hurry home to be here, because I don't want to be here all the time. Know that after 18 years, I am finally being born.
Poetically Yours,
Sabriel
Don't think wrong though, everything is OK. And generally I feel fine... so why did I write such a long mood in my mood status thingy? Because that is exactly how I have so many things going on in my head that it makes me feel so alive. And I have the joy of being with Marian and the problems we need to work out (like both learning how to kiss hahaha) and the pain my father's constant lying is giving, and each time I have to call him because the money isn't going through; with college work and exams just starting for all classes, with the "college life" which is really none since I don't party or anything and I just walk alone on the campus when I'm not in class; to my mom's annoying calls to the giant gap between our comunication, wherein she says one thing and I understand something else, or I tell her something and she doesn't even hear it. To each and every tragic moment that I am missing, to that beauty I rarely see anymore, and the longing to write and read for hours. All of this is going on in my life and though it's bothersome or whatnot I find it great that it makes me feel I am alive. To be honest very very few times have I felt like this, and I mean very few (no more than 3, to be exact).
I feel bad in the sense of the people I know. Of the people I read and of the people I play with. I miss them, very dearly, but then I think that this is the thing that always happens with the people I meet, they go away, but now it's diferent, I have gone away. Although not far I am still away. As go less and less to this computer, and the times I do it is to play World of Warcraft, which to some point I have left also. (though not as much).
I'm sorry to everyone in anyway. Know that I have not forgotten about you. Simply I am finally out of this damn chair which kept me ensanared for so long, that to some degree I am finally free from it. That I no longer hurry home to be here, because I don't want to be here all the time. Know that after 18 years, I am finally being born.
Poetically Yours,
Sabriel