she ain't revved 'til the rods are thrown
And I will give them one heart, and one way, that they may fear me for ever, for the good of them, and of their children after them:
Jeremiah 32:39
i'm not much for scripture or psalms... or even the bible for that matter, but this will be with me always... and if you're one of the lucky ones, you know why.
i got an a on the spanish test i got back yesterday. i'm either going to have an a or b in there. i just stopped doing the assigned homework online, but it's only worth 5% of our grade. it was so tedious, i couldn't handle it anymore.
we did our group presentations today in prevention and deterrence. i suppose it went well enough... despite two our group members being better off mute. we'll find out our grade when we take the final on tuesday.
TOMORROW'S THE LAST FULL DAY OF CLASSES!!!!! AHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i can't believe it. HOORAY.
i wish that i could relive the summer that i lived with amber. that summer was full of fun, friends, and discovery. though i didn't live out on my own for long, i really did learn a lot. mema had a stroke that april after i had moved out, and while i was so happy to be out on my own, it made me realize that invincibility doesn't exist. mortality isn't something i had considered until then. i realized that even though i was distancing myself physically from my family, i shouldn't distance myself emotionally.
i remember late nights on amber's bed just talking. we talked about anything and everything. she really understood me and she could read me like a book. i remember having the radio blasting and us singing so loudly. i remember having brendan and thomas over and laughing hysterically about gary busey. trivial pursuit, anyone? comer? kyle?
we were standing in the kitchen one night and we were saying our goodbyes. he held me closely, kissed me, and pulled away. he looked at me with eyes i'd never seen before. softly he said, "angela, i love you." i was so scared and completely taken aback. grinning like a fool i asked him if he meant it. he laughed a little and said, "that wasn't the response i was going for."
i turned 20 that june and celebrated with people who cared and who i cared about. i discovered what vodka and kool-aid tastes like coming up.
i learned to always keep a jack in the car just in case you're in the hood and you pop a tire flipping a u-turn. a couple of days later we almost got arrested for throwing water balloons at hookers. poor kyle was not liked by those cops.
i remember spring river being fun and laughing at all of the drunken fools falling out of their boats and getting tossed by the waves. i lost my flip-flops and got a lovely sunburn, but the stories that we leave there are worth returning for.
poking fun was funny and not mean.
we saw the wizard of oz at the orpheum and didn't realize that we missed the memo about hissing when the wicked witch of the west appeared onscreen.
we hosted a july 4th party at our house. bri's mom said it was boring, and i thought it was the funniest thing. we watched the fireworks down by the river with the rest of the city, but we were the only two people there. we held on as tightly as we could without being overtaken by the humidity, and he promised to be with me forever.
i love summer if only to make memories like those with people who mean the most.
to all of you who can't seem to get past yourselves, i wish you knew what you were missing.
Jeremiah 32:39
i'm not much for scripture or psalms... or even the bible for that matter, but this will be with me always... and if you're one of the lucky ones, you know why.
i got an a on the spanish test i got back yesterday. i'm either going to have an a or b in there. i just stopped doing the assigned homework online, but it's only worth 5% of our grade. it was so tedious, i couldn't handle it anymore.
we did our group presentations today in prevention and deterrence. i suppose it went well enough... despite two our group members being better off mute. we'll find out our grade when we take the final on tuesday.
TOMORROW'S THE LAST FULL DAY OF CLASSES!!!!! AHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i can't believe it. HOORAY.
i wish that i could relive the summer that i lived with amber. that summer was full of fun, friends, and discovery. though i didn't live out on my own for long, i really did learn a lot. mema had a stroke that april after i had moved out, and while i was so happy to be out on my own, it made me realize that invincibility doesn't exist. mortality isn't something i had considered until then. i realized that even though i was distancing myself physically from my family, i shouldn't distance myself emotionally.
i remember late nights on amber's bed just talking. we talked about anything and everything. she really understood me and she could read me like a book. i remember having the radio blasting and us singing so loudly. i remember having brendan and thomas over and laughing hysterically about gary busey. trivial pursuit, anyone? comer? kyle?
we were standing in the kitchen one night and we were saying our goodbyes. he held me closely, kissed me, and pulled away. he looked at me with eyes i'd never seen before. softly he said, "angela, i love you." i was so scared and completely taken aback. grinning like a fool i asked him if he meant it. he laughed a little and said, "that wasn't the response i was going for."
i turned 20 that june and celebrated with people who cared and who i cared about. i discovered what vodka and kool-aid tastes like coming up.
i learned to always keep a jack in the car just in case you're in the hood and you pop a tire flipping a u-turn. a couple of days later we almost got arrested for throwing water balloons at hookers. poor kyle was not liked by those cops.
i remember spring river being fun and laughing at all of the drunken fools falling out of their boats and getting tossed by the waves. i lost my flip-flops and got a lovely sunburn, but the stories that we leave there are worth returning for.
poking fun was funny and not mean.
we saw the wizard of oz at the orpheum and didn't realize that we missed the memo about hissing when the wicked witch of the west appeared onscreen.
we hosted a july 4th party at our house. bri's mom said it was boring, and i thought it was the funniest thing. we watched the fireworks down by the river with the rest of the city, but we were the only two people there. we held on as tightly as we could without being overtaken by the humidity, and he promised to be with me forever.
i love summer if only to make memories like those with people who mean the most.
to all of you who can't seem to get past yourselves, i wish you knew what you were missing.