Jan 08, 2007 06:38
It would have been a completely different story right now if I just met her.
but this has festered inside of me for so long. This feeling that I pushed to the back of my head forever now. Theres no way I can possibly put it.
Its that point where words stop existing. Things stop. Everything in the world just freezes around you, and you just dont care.
Suddenly, you just have this urge, and you cant even explain it. So many different feelings crashed together at once in an overwhelming mass of pure ecstacy that nothing could ever compare to. Its feelings like this that inspire a man to be more than just human, because you know in your heart that there is no way for the human body to contain something like this, much less comprehend it, without exploding into a fireworks display of raw love and joy and gratitude.
Songs start to mean something more than beats, measures, and rhythm. Words mean less and less because no word could even begin to describe it. Even food tastes better in your mouth. Its this feeling that you've found something more than love. Everything becomes a sign, each moment apart is so painful, and yet the prospect of seeing her gives you the strength to move mountains.
Your entire world just becomes a sillouette, and irrationality becomes nature. You start to find yourself saying things you would never ever say, and meaning them every time. They just spill out of your mouth like honey, and you hope every single syllable hits her right in the middle her her heart so she can understand what shes done for you.
Even the presence of God is no longer debatable, because man could never create something so beautiful, so divine.
You've taken off your life jacket. You dont even have to hold your breath. hope, doubt, and hatred are tossed over the side, and jumping in seems like such a good idea.
even if you cant swim. This girl has thrown you a rope and given you so much will and strength that you finally pull yourself out of the sea instead of drowning alone for the rest of your life.
You'll even find yourself sitting there, holding the phone after hours of "I love you" and "I miss you", even after shes hung up. Just hanging there, hoping she can still hear you whispering it a thousand times just for her.
This is it and you know it. This is more than love.
Its destiny.
Baby, you've restored my faith in the human heart. You really have. I love you so much. I dont care who thinks Im crazy for it, but I want you in my arms till my last breath.
and even then, Ill never let you go.
Thank you so much for this. Your love is a gift that I can never even begin to repay.
<3 forever.