"My, my, my, how the time does fly when you know you're gonna die by the end of the night..."
You, you try, you try to get by,
you’re never going to pull it off,
you shouldn't even try.
You're a wet cigarette,
you’re always second best,
they're never going to give a shit about anybody but themselves.
You fight for them to realize,
there's more to life,
there's more to you,
there's more than meets the eye.
And when you're done, the battle's been won,
you sit back, you smile,
And this is what you hum, you hum,
Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh,
Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh.
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Years go by, the time it does fly,
Every single second is a moment in time,
that passes oh so quick, and it seems like nothing,
but when you're looking back, well it amounts to everything,
(Whoa) I've got myself, I've got my friends,
I've got my little family, but that's not where it ends,
This one goes out to you, it goes out to everyone,
It's in the name of honesty because life has just begun.
Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh,
Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh.
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Look around little brother can you tell me what you see?
You're a big boy now, so take responsibility,
you never had it hard, but now it's getting tough,
so you whine, whine, whine and you say you've had enough.
You say I'm full of shit, that I'm a hypocrite
I shouldn't talk when I can't take the advice that I give,
Well maybe you're right, but open your eyes:
the main difference here is that I try, try try
Summer is almost over.
I have just over a week left, but, honestly I'm sort of looking forward to it being over.
I've spent this summer going to shows (Warped Tour, Lamb of God with Behemoth and Three Inches of Blood, MSI, Slightly Stoopid with Ozomatli, and Glove & Special Sauce, NinjaSpy and other locals), smoking weed, having sex, longboarding, and embracing general laziness. But, I'm excited to go back to school.
I'm taking all courses I want to be in - AP English honors, AP Literate, student aide for Writing, Geography, Comparitive Civilizations, Art Foundations, and Media. The only class there I'm even on the fence about is Geography, and I enjoyed it last year on some level, so it won't be too bad.
The weather will be cooler and I'll have somewhere to be evry morning, so I can take my boots and all my other shoes out of the closet again. Shoes are truly god's greatest gift to (wo)man. I can wear my dresses and skirts and stuff all the time.
It's my graduating year! I'm going to apply myself the hardest I can and be proud of myself for my graduating year. I'm excited for grad itself, too!
I had an interview at Home Restaraunt today to be a hostess! My piercings are all acceptable (bridge is questionable but likely to be accepted with smaller beads) and my hair is fine, too. I would make 9 bucks and hour, plus tips, which average between a dollar to a dollar fifty an hour more. I'm stoked, so I might have a new job in the new schoolyear as well.
This summer, I'm proud of myself for surviving with a strong relationship still in tact. None of my relationships ever seem to survive summer without taking significant damage, but this one did it. Jeremie is 110% perfect for me at this point in my life. I don't know what the future holds, but at this given time, he fits with me like jigsaw puzzle pieces; not without flaw, but such a good fit. He's a keeper. And, when school starts, it'll be good because I'll be seeing a little less of him, and I'll have other parts of my life to focus more on so we'll give eachother some space. There's a good chance he might stay at my house for three weeks or more while his parents renovate. It could be pretty fun, and I can't see us clashing too badly seeing as I go to school and work, he goes to work and band practices and we both have other things to do, so it'd be nice.
I've made new, rethought and strengthened friendships this summer. Tina and I spent a lot of time together this summer. I got to know Jeremie's friends like Dan, Brandon and Johnny a lot better, and enjoy them thoroughly. Christoph's kicking around still. Me and Alley have been chillin a bunch. Megan and I spent a chunk of time together, but her car has been parked outside of NIck's house overnight several times this week and it's hard not to raise an eyebrow at that. At work, I've had a bunch of fun with Josephene and am completely smitten with the charming Britney and Shayla. I hope to see everyone even after I quit. Hailee's really been there for me this past while. I miss Jess and Lish and Brit, but I've at least managed to see them a couple of times which is refreshing. Teshia's been around a bit too. Friendships are rad.
Speaking of Teshia - she's fucking taking me to Disneyland for my birthday/grad! Expenses all paid except food and spending money. I'm stoked beyond stoked. CALI-FUCKING-FORNIA. I don't care if I don't get to longboard in the sun and lounge on the beach, and listen to ska until my head explodes, and smoke two joint in time of peace and two in time of war.... but I get to go to Disneyland and Universal Studios, so who the fuck cares for now?! I'll get back there and do those things later.
By the end of this Summer I'll have accomplished the following, if all goes according to plan;
$1000 put away towards Blanche Macdonald.
$50 put away towards Disneyland spending money.
At least have studied for my 'L'.
Lost a tiny bit of fatty thigh from longboarding.
Have a new job.
I'm excited, honestly. Really, quite excited.
So much random crap has happened that I haven't written about, but I promise myself I'll write more when I'm in school.
Kurra Dawn.