WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE IN THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS OF A ROMANCE MOVIE
People change, its inevitable. Some for the better and some for the worse. You never know who will be your friend one day and turn around and face a different direction of what that person used to do. I have changed, it comes with age. But there is one change that I don't like. That change would be how I treat girl's now. I have turned into a complete asshole that doesn't deserve to even have any girls look me. I used to be different, but it seems that from every break up I loose some of that caring and effort that is put into a relationship. I went down from giving 90% to now just giving 40%. I lost the one thing that made me realize that you should never give up. Never keep your heart closed, cause if you do you could loose that one person in your life that means so much to you without them even knowing. I wrote something tonight that I wanted to share. Now I don't know who will read this but I sure hope that she will read this one day and understand that she is in my heart permanently...
"DUMB BOYFRIENDS"
There are many times that I don't understand why I act the way I do. For the last couple of weeks I've been trying to figure out what I was doing . Like trying to figure out if Christina is worth everything. Well on homecoming night I figured it out. She is worth everything, everything and more. There are many things said that I regret so much. The thing I regret the most is that I yelled at her in the process of trying to make her understand the reason I was acting the was I was. I have never yelled at any of my girlfriends in the past. I figured out though why I did. Because I was afraid of loosing her. I realized what Christina said was true. The relationship was going nowhere from before we ended it. I believe that if we started over I could really make a turn around from 40% to giving her my whole 100% of my feelings and love. I also believe that this incident has made me realize that I have lost the one true girl that actually cared about more than I have ever expected any person of the opposite sex to feel for me. I FUCKED up majorly and now I have to make things right again. I will get her back, I will do anything to have her. No DUI, parents, friends, or anything on this whole planet will stop me from getting Christina back!!! I finally opened my eyes to what I was blinded from before. I miss you Christina. I will show you.
Love,
Ben
"DUMB BOYFRIENDS"
There are many times that I don't understand why I act the way I do. For the last couple of weeks I've been trying to figure out what I was doing . Like trying to figure out if Christina is worth everything. Well on homecoming night I figured it out. She is worth everything, everything and more. There are many things said that I regret so much. The thing I regret the most is that I yelled at her in the process of trying to make her understand the reason I was acting the was I was. I have never yelled at any of my girlfriends in the past. I figured out though why I did. Because I was afraid of loosing her. I realized what Christina said was true. The relationship was going nowhere from before we ended it. I believe that if we started over I could really make a turn around from 40% to giving her my whole 100% of my feelings and love. I also believe that this incident has made me realize that I have lost the one true girl that actually cared about more than I have ever expected any person of the opposite sex to feel for me. I FUCKED up majorly and now I have to make things right again. I will get her back, I will do anything to have her. No DUI, parents, friends, or anything on this whole planet will stop me from getting Christina back!!! I finally opened my eyes to what I was blinded from before. I miss you Christina. I will show you.
Love,
Ben