dont read this unless you really do know me.

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fuck everything.
im so sick of this shit.
im sick of feeling dead inside,
and just feeling numb.
i havent been depressed in so long.
why do girls gotta do this?
well whatever fuck em all,
if i ever go out w/ another girl tj will kick me in the balls
and the shins over and over again.
i cant sleep at all.
i got like almost 2 hours last night,
and im shooting for more than that tonight but we'll see.
staying awake until its light it sucks.
i cant do anythinggggggggggg.
im also miserably failing my collective and it sucks.
damnit damnit damnit. fuck fuck fuck.
i dont really know what to say to describe this feeling.
i just wanna curl up into a ball and roll around.
but something in my head is keeping me from it.
i just need to crush now. i need flat black in me at all times.
because who needs to care about girl, friends, school, job, when
you can just fuck up everything real nice. yes.
emotions are for the weak. you can find me chain smoking outside myhouse anytime of night,
ill be up feel free to ring. ok.