Febreze on vomit
Another lazy weekend. I love it. I really love just spending all day in bed and doing nothing...going back to my true calling of being a lazy ass, hehe. School is starting to slow down finally, but not in a good way just because I have finals to look forward to. I have to write a report sometime this weekend, but I don't really have anything that I have to really worry about. It feels good to not have to worry about anything.
Well last night was definitely an adventure. Every weekend seems to be going in the same direction...like I know what to expect now so I don't have to worry. I just have to get Leili in the same mindset now and try her to be a hard ass too, haha! Yesterday was fun, having a joy ride and getting McDonalds. I like how I can laugh at it, even though it should probably get me mad. I have learned that being out here has made me so much more agressive and I have learned to fend for myself, which I definitely don't think is a bad thing. I like knowing that I can take care of myself and the people I love. On that note, I'm really looking forward to going home. It hasn't been the same since my birthday...not being at home for that and for Easter was really hard. Things are better now but I'm really looking forward to being home and not having to worry about school anymore. I hope more than anything that everything works out and that I will be back. I love UT so much and I feel so lucky to be here, so I just hope it stays that way.
I've been missing the attention definitely. Milano's are not good, but boys are beautiful...especially in black shirts, and sometimes with braces. I'm young and I like to have fun and I'm so happy with the person that I am. I love myself and when someone else can do that for me, that will be the day. As for now, nobody has proven that to me. That's what happens when gorgeous ex-bfs fuck you over. I'll never be the same in that aspect, I know for the rest of my life I will always be left wondering what was really going on in that head. So it was kind of nice to have a mental breakdown and cry about it in front of people that wouldn't take it against me, and for sweet boys that let me mess up their precious car in the worst way. He's great, but not as a boyfriend. All I know is that chinese food is calling my name, I miss him like hell, and I love my family and friends so so much. I am so lucky. Life is good, any takers? Urie is my love and the crown will be broken by him if I ever get the chance! :)
Well last night was definitely an adventure. Every weekend seems to be going in the same direction...like I know what to expect now so I don't have to worry. I just have to get Leili in the same mindset now and try her to be a hard ass too, haha! Yesterday was fun, having a joy ride and getting McDonalds. I like how I can laugh at it, even though it should probably get me mad. I have learned that being out here has made me so much more agressive and I have learned to fend for myself, which I definitely don't think is a bad thing. I like knowing that I can take care of myself and the people I love. On that note, I'm really looking forward to going home. It hasn't been the same since my birthday...not being at home for that and for Easter was really hard. Things are better now but I'm really looking forward to being home and not having to worry about school anymore. I hope more than anything that everything works out and that I will be back. I love UT so much and I feel so lucky to be here, so I just hope it stays that way.
I've been missing the attention definitely. Milano's are not good, but boys are beautiful...especially in black shirts, and sometimes with braces. I'm young and I like to have fun and I'm so happy with the person that I am. I love myself and when someone else can do that for me, that will be the day. As for now, nobody has proven that to me. That's what happens when gorgeous ex-bfs fuck you over. I'll never be the same in that aspect, I know for the rest of my life I will always be left wondering what was really going on in that head. So it was kind of nice to have a mental breakdown and cry about it in front of people that wouldn't take it against me, and for sweet boys that let me mess up their precious car in the worst way. He's great, but not as a boyfriend. All I know is that chinese food is calling my name, I miss him like hell, and I love my family and friends so so much. I am so lucky. Life is good, any takers? Urie is my love and the crown will be broken by him if I ever get the chance! :)