Negative nostalgia
So I was just re-reading my couple posts regarding moving to Portland, particularly the one I posted while in Glenwood on the way up here, and I have to say - moving to Portland was like the most emotionally painful single experience of my life so far. I would not go through it again for ANYTHING. Now that I'm settled in, I love it here, and I'm glad I did it, and I wouldn't UNDO it... but god DAMN it was HORRIBLE. Packing everything up, leaving nearly everyone I know and love, driving all the way across the country... the first day, driving from Lincoln to Glenwood, was like spiritual death. I was just horribly sad, depressed, scared, lost, lonely, blah blah blah. Oh man... I am so glad I don't have to go through that again. I can only imagine, being more uprooted now, moving somewhere from here would be much easier. Know less people, been here less time.
Seriously, I can't say "holy god" enough to express, in retrospect, how difficult that was. Ugh.
Anyways! So Grant asked me to be one of his groomsmen at his wedding, which is awesome. He's gettin' hitched August 15, so I gotta catch me a jet plane back into town sometime around then. Hoping to make it back in to visit before then at some point (obviously), but still... pretty exciting. Though when we were talking on the phone about it, he kept calling Mike a very insensitive, offensive word (that I won't repeat here), and frankly it was sort of shocking.
Anyway, tomorrow is looking like another day off work due to snow, but I'm gonna go ahead and bed down incase I end up having to go in after all (albeit a couple hours late).
Seriously, I can't say "holy god" enough to express, in retrospect, how difficult that was. Ugh.
Anyways! So Grant asked me to be one of his groomsmen at his wedding, which is awesome. He's gettin' hitched August 15, so I gotta catch me a jet plane back into town sometime around then. Hoping to make it back in to visit before then at some point (obviously), but still... pretty exciting. Though when we were talking on the phone about it, he kept calling Mike a very insensitive, offensive word (that I won't repeat here), and frankly it was sort of shocking.
Anyway, tomorrow is looking like another day off work due to snow, but I'm gonna go ahead and bed down incase I end up having to go in after all (albeit a couple hours late).