What is Normal?
I just watched "professor Marston and the wonder woman" and it was just an amazing movie for a few reasons at least. on reason it was great was that the movie depicted a three way relationship (polyamorous) between two woman and a man, each loving each other not just submissive to the man. Another reason is the explanation of D.I.S.C. Dominance (D), Inducement (I), Submission (S), and Compliance (C), and I have come to realize I have never practiced the right form of this with any of my partners.
I say I am a nice guy but I truly believe I have not treated any of my partners fair, hence I am an ass hole. I know my skin is just screaming to touch another human being but my mind screams in my head "get away, get away" and all my muscles tense up when someone even gets close to me. All i want is someone to be close too but when someone is here is in my space all I want is them to get away from me, how can have a relationship with someone when I don't even want them around.
I has also come to realize that watching this show and "Sex Education" among other cute relationship anime off NetFlix I truly have to come to see that I really am or sliding further and further in A-Sexuality, in fact I am nut sure if I am having an interest in anyone any more. I have not decided if I am giving up on humanity all together or there is some deep seeded depression I have not deal with because i seem to bury my emotions. Either way I just don't have a drive to even peruse another human being any more.
I say I am a nice guy but I truly believe I have not treated any of my partners fair, hence I am an ass hole. I know my skin is just screaming to touch another human being but my mind screams in my head "get away, get away" and all my muscles tense up when someone even gets close to me. All i want is someone to be close too but when someone is here is in my space all I want is them to get away from me, how can have a relationship with someone when I don't even want them around.
I has also come to realize that watching this show and "Sex Education" among other cute relationship anime off NetFlix I truly have to come to see that I really am or sliding further and further in A-Sexuality, in fact I am nut sure if I am having an interest in anyone any more. I have not decided if I am giving up on humanity all together or there is some deep seeded depression I have not deal with because i seem to bury my emotions. Either way I just don't have a drive to even peruse another human being any more.