On the Public Display of Emotion: PDEs are strictly prohibited
Pressure.
There's always this pressure i feel, like i should be doing this or i need to be doing that. Even when i know i dont, i see that imy stress is not reality-based, i still feel it.
Its getting bigger. Stronger.
There's so much to do to get anything done these days...and why? All i'm doing is waiting for this week to end, so i can get to the next one and wait it out, so i can wait for the semester to end...
we are always waiting for something, have you noticed that?
we wait to get to junior high, to feel like one of the 'big kids;' we wait to get to highschool, to be teenagers' we wait to graduate; we wait through college to get a degree to wait for someone to hire us...
we wait through each week, each month, each year of a job until we can move up, have it a little better...
we wait to finally retire, so we can wait around all day doing notihng...we wait all our lives, and for what? to get old and die?
i just feel like i'm waiting for something, for everything...im waiting for my life to start and its just not happening. I'm always just trying to get through each thing, each assignment or social event, each birthday, waiting for my time to come....
it feels like its just not going to come, whatever 'it' is.
it feels like im stuck in a room where all the walls are closing in on me everyday, and instead o trying to find a way out, i just scrape away thin layers of paint each day, trying to squeak by....but pretty soon that wont work anymore.
i have to get the fuck out of here or i'll go fucking insane.
Anyone else up for a vacation?!
There's always this pressure i feel, like i should be doing this or i need to be doing that. Even when i know i dont, i see that imy stress is not reality-based, i still feel it.
Its getting bigger. Stronger.
There's so much to do to get anything done these days...and why? All i'm doing is waiting for this week to end, so i can get to the next one and wait it out, so i can wait for the semester to end...
we are always waiting for something, have you noticed that?
we wait to get to junior high, to feel like one of the 'big kids;' we wait to get to highschool, to be teenagers' we wait to graduate; we wait through college to get a degree to wait for someone to hire us...
we wait through each week, each month, each year of a job until we can move up, have it a little better...
we wait to finally retire, so we can wait around all day doing notihng...we wait all our lives, and for what? to get old and die?
i just feel like i'm waiting for something, for everything...im waiting for my life to start and its just not happening. I'm always just trying to get through each thing, each assignment or social event, each birthday, waiting for my time to come....
it feels like its just not going to come, whatever 'it' is.
it feels like im stuck in a room where all the walls are closing in on me everyday, and instead o trying to find a way out, i just scrape away thin layers of paint each day, trying to squeak by....but pretty soon that wont work anymore.
i have to get the fuck out of here or i'll go fucking insane.
Anyone else up for a vacation?!