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Time for an update. This IS the real me, whether you like it or not. I'm not some happy go lucky person. I have a lot of problems, and I'm fucked up than most 12 year old kids my age.
Today, I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. My friend Shawn. It's too hard to explain, and I cry just thinking about it. I've been crying for the past hour ever since he said "good-bye" to me. He's had such a huge effect on me. He cheered me up when no one else could, and put a smile on my face everyday. He always tried to put me in a better mood. If I knew today was going to be the last day I was going to talk to him, I might have talked to him more. This is so hard. Nothing has ever come down on me this hard before. I just need to stop.
I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the next few weeks without him. He was basically my only friend. I feel so miserable. I feel worse than what I already did. Why am I even updating this? No one even reads it.
Today, I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. My friend Shawn. It's too hard to explain, and I cry just thinking about it. I've been crying for the past hour ever since he said "good-bye" to me. He's had such a huge effect on me. He cheered me up when no one else could, and put a smile on my face everyday. He always tried to put me in a better mood. If I knew today was going to be the last day I was going to talk to him, I might have talked to him more. This is so hard. Nothing has ever come down on me this hard before. I just need to stop.
I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the next few weeks without him. He was basically my only friend. I feel so miserable. I feel worse than what I already did. Why am I even updating this? No one even reads it.