I wouldn't even know where to begin
In order to catch up, I wouldn't even know where to begin. So instead I'll just start all over, like a new person, a new life, a new reality. In so many ways this is true, because I'm doing so without my father, who has been there for me my whole life, and without my mother, who has always been my best friend. But things change. So who am I now, and what the fuck am I doing? I miss A.K., a brilliant beautiful person I used to exist because of and still do weather they realise it or not. Another wonderful person I fatasize as coming back to my life is J.S. (well, there are two J.S.s really, and I adore them both.) But for some reason, I cant take the picture out of my purse of HIM and I, both looking into the camera, his eyes so deep and brown that it seems the whole world rests in them. He had all the secrets, he knew all the answers. Now I justw want to know him again. If you are out there, I love you.