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They tell me I need to let go, they tell me I need let people in, they tell me I'm too strong, they tell me it's ok to make mistakes. But I don't know how. I can't. If I could, I would've done so by now. I'm a Sagitarius; the sign of excess. I don't know what moderation is.
My emotions are out of control right now. I'm so spent. I just wish that someone could come save me as I've done for many others. But the problem with being strong is that when you have a problem there's nobody there for you, nobody for you to lean on. And I hate that. Because even if there was, I wouldn't let myself depend on them, and I don't know why.
College is about making memories, and friends you will never forget, but am I doing that?
I don't think so.
My mom tells me I've gained weight. I feel really objectified when she says that, and I hate that feeling. That puts even more pressure on me, because now I feel obligated to lose weight. I think I'm just going to starve myself; i've been wanting to for years now.
My emotions are out of control right now. I'm so spent. I just wish that someone could come save me as I've done for many others. But the problem with being strong is that when you have a problem there's nobody there for you, nobody for you to lean on. And I hate that. Because even if there was, I wouldn't let myself depend on them, and I don't know why.
College is about making memories, and friends you will never forget, but am I doing that?
I don't think so.
My mom tells me I've gained weight. I feel really objectified when she says that, and I hate that feeling. That puts even more pressure on me, because now I feel obligated to lose weight. I think I'm just going to starve myself; i've been wanting to for years now.