Reality
It was almost exactly two years ago when I got the phone call that changed my life. Sitting in an empty apartment, alone, I had to deal with the reality of life or rather death.
I never thought that my goodbye would be the last. I never called him that week to tell him I loved him. I don't know why I didn't...I always called him at least once a week...why couldn't I have called him.
People always pray that their loved ones died peacefully without any pain. While I wish that more than anything I am not that naive. I know he was in massive pain and it kills me.
I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!
There are so many things that I regret about my father, but not being there that weekend takes the cake.
You know the saddest thing...I cannot even remember his voice. How, after hearing it for 22 years, can I forget his voice? I would give anything to talk to him one last time.
I know that this was not a great post...but just had to write it...today is going to be a hard day.
I never thought that my goodbye would be the last. I never called him that week to tell him I loved him. I don't know why I didn't...I always called him at least once a week...why couldn't I have called him.
People always pray that their loved ones died peacefully without any pain. While I wish that more than anything I am not that naive. I know he was in massive pain and it kills me.
I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!
There are so many things that I regret about my father, but not being there that weekend takes the cake.
You know the saddest thing...I cannot even remember his voice. How, after hearing it for 22 years, can I forget his voice? I would give anything to talk to him one last time.
I know that this was not a great post...but just had to write it...today is going to be a hard day.