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So last night. We went to Cubanitas. Which was amazing. And i'm pretty sure its our new "spot" if we could really have a new spot. Hhaha.
So then we were crazy fools and got chased by 2 crazy ass mexicans in a car.
I was absolutely terrified.
But then we sorta laughed it off, even though it could have turned into something major. Idk. It made me feel better.
He cancelled. I dont know what to think about that. Am I so infectiously self-absorbed that I think it has to be about me and that it isnt purely coincidence? I could be, but isn't that a stretch. I tried to examine it from all angles, and this seems like the only rational thought: fate? destiny? or foreshadowing? I don't know. It sucks, that's all I can reasonably explain. I cant even explain why it sucks so much.
Here I thought I had it all worked out and then. I guess not. That was right out of the most unexpected place ever: him. Maybe we're all trying to forget it and maybe I just don't understand that. I do understand that I told Stevy we can't chill today when I talked to Sarah on the phone. Oops. It was calculated. Planned to the enth degree. Until this happened.
Uh.
Well I have to work in a half hour. There is nothing anymore to look forward to once I get off, though. Shit. I wonder if I brought it on myself?
So then we were crazy fools and got chased by 2 crazy ass mexicans in a car.
I was absolutely terrified.
But then we sorta laughed it off, even though it could have turned into something major. Idk. It made me feel better.
He cancelled. I dont know what to think about that. Am I so infectiously self-absorbed that I think it has to be about me and that it isnt purely coincidence? I could be, but isn't that a stretch. I tried to examine it from all angles, and this seems like the only rational thought: fate? destiny? or foreshadowing? I don't know. It sucks, that's all I can reasonably explain. I cant even explain why it sucks so much.
Here I thought I had it all worked out and then. I guess not. That was right out of the most unexpected place ever: him. Maybe we're all trying to forget it and maybe I just don't understand that. I do understand that I told Stevy we can't chill today when I talked to Sarah on the phone. Oops. It was calculated. Planned to the enth degree. Until this happened.
Uh.
Well I have to work in a half hour. There is nothing anymore to look forward to once I get off, though. Shit. I wonder if I brought it on myself?