Random happenings
Haha. Oh what a week.
So Monday after work K and I went to the Pour House to meet up with P and his coursemates. Of course I only knew her and him and I ended up chatting with her quite a bit for the first part of the night (a little difficult when the other guys kinda sat far away). So the majority left wth the exception of P and one of his coursemates (let's call him playa). So as it was Monday night in Ottawa the pub was closing at midnight so we went off in search of another place to go to. So we ended up at a lounge finally and had some more drinks.
I spent the majority of the night mindlessly poking with my straw into my drink. That is until K made the mention that I needed a boyfriend or something to keep my hands occupied. I, clueless as ever, didn't get it and stated it's not the same thing. I got it yesterday finally after K explained the whole motion thing. Haha. So then playa decides he wants to dance and K isn't budging so I volunteer myself. Playa is pushy and tries to kiss me a couple times and I brutally rebuffed his advances. Pushy but not smooth is how I'd describe him. So I end up going back to our table and he drags K up on the dance floor. So then P decides it's about time for him and I to dance together. I of course cannot follow whatsoever and attempt to lead which does not fit with his masculine nature. It did not turn out well but I am sure it was quite amusing to everyone around us that we were arguing over who should lead. So we sat down. Next minute we look over and K and playa are completely making out. So obviously embarassed I just state it to P and then turn back to him and we chat about whatever, nothing in particular. Then we were kind of quiet and so he tries to kiss me only to be greeted by my cheek. Finally he asks what I am thinking of and that's when I lose all sense of any resemblance of a normal person and start babling on about the book I should finish and go on to talk about Dostoevsky. This is of course out of nervousness but what can you do, So then it was time to go,
I missed the last local bus back so decided on taking the rapid bus and walking an hour from the station. I should mention that while at the lounge I really needed a toilet and was too lazy to find it. So I ended up having to wait three hours. The only happenings that were remotely interesting other then my very quick pace was a drag race followed by a police car a couple blocks behind and a rabbit that crossed my path. What happened after I left? P got a cab back to their hotel and playa went into the cab with K to pay for her cab fare - nothing as far as I know happened beyond that. Oh it turned out after that the guy is married with kids. Ugh.
Since then I had chatted with P and was on MSN with him and K at the same time. K got his email from the three-way convo we were having and chatted with him. According to her he does really like me (including my quirkiness) and he doesn't want to pressure me into anything which is why he's okay with what happened. But does want a real kiss (as opposed to the cheek). Too much of a gentleman to force it, which is not something that is all too common from what I've experienced. So she's been kind of egging both of us on: especially since I am going to Kingston to visit for the day.
Now here is the thing ... That makes me very nervous. I am not sure I am ready or if I even want this. I know this sounds silly but here are my reasons why:
1. I am still not completely over my last relationship
2. I don't want to ruin our friendship
3. It's been a long time and I do like him but I am worried that it will be terrible
4. I am more likely then not moving out of the country in August so how can I start something two months before leaving
5. It is in direct conflict with what I feel I am meant to be doing
And now that he's figured out that K has told me what he's told her, he has become more open about his feelings about me.
On a completely unrelated note the guy that works at the Wireless store next to the cafe I work at is a complete douche. Very nasty guy who decided it would be a great night to proposition me in a way. We were having a normal conversation with the meaningless banter of getting to know you because there are really no customers and we are so bored. He asks if I have a bf (no, still no, since the last time you asked - to which he replies well don't you ever just crave the physical aspect of relationships and I say no because I have hobbies to keep my busy like photography - to which he replies you could take a photo of my penis). Ugh. Nasty man.
Oh so last night I saw the movie "UP!" and it was actually really good. The story is amazing and there are really sad and funny bits. It really is a movie for everyone.
On another note it looks like I will have to find a second job which I am a little ticked about. Girl that used to work at the cafe has returned. Girl needs money, fine, but so does everyone else working there. I used to get 20-23 hours/week which was perfect for what I need. I have gone down to working 16-18 hours/week. Her hours? Well, a couple weeks ago they started at 12 and next week? She's got 39. Wait, what? My hours get cut and she gets more then twice the amount of hours she started off with? Someone else's hours went up too. And how about her working 12-5 on the day I get the 5-9 shift? How can you justify that? Really? I am trying to save as much as I can but I still have bills to pay and do want to have a small social life as opposed to doing absolutely nothing. I need to save up for my first month and a plane ticket. How am I supposed to do that with almost half as many hours as I was getting? By getting another job. And in this job market? There isn't very much. At all. I'll have to talk to my boss tomorrow to see about that because, uh, what? The other problem? I will be taking a course next month and will only be free Wed/Thur/Sun afternoon/evenings and as those are the days I will have zero life and go crazy next month between that and the course I will be taking (yup, I am now registered - the thing is it is longer then I thought: 8-12:30 Monday to Friday for the whole month starting with right after Canada Day).
Sunday I shall be going to Kingston for the day. I hope it's nice then what they're predicting which is light rain all day. The plan is probably most likely Wolfe Island. And then on Wednesday I am going to Montreal with E for that day and come back Thursday. Very exciting. I wish I knew I were getting more hours for the weeks afterward so that I could have a little bit of spending money. This sucks royally.
And BTW: those of you jerkwads that added me who are trying to do scams of how to get money from the Canadian government please take me off your friend's list as I am absolutely not interested.
So Monday after work K and I went to the Pour House to meet up with P and his coursemates. Of course I only knew her and him and I ended up chatting with her quite a bit for the first part of the night (a little difficult when the other guys kinda sat far away). So the majority left wth the exception of P and one of his coursemates (let's call him playa). So as it was Monday night in Ottawa the pub was closing at midnight so we went off in search of another place to go to. So we ended up at a lounge finally and had some more drinks.
I spent the majority of the night mindlessly poking with my straw into my drink. That is until K made the mention that I needed a boyfriend or something to keep my hands occupied. I, clueless as ever, didn't get it and stated it's not the same thing. I got it yesterday finally after K explained the whole motion thing. Haha. So then playa decides he wants to dance and K isn't budging so I volunteer myself. Playa is pushy and tries to kiss me a couple times and I brutally rebuffed his advances. Pushy but not smooth is how I'd describe him. So I end up going back to our table and he drags K up on the dance floor. So then P decides it's about time for him and I to dance together. I of course cannot follow whatsoever and attempt to lead which does not fit with his masculine nature. It did not turn out well but I am sure it was quite amusing to everyone around us that we were arguing over who should lead. So we sat down. Next minute we look over and K and playa are completely making out. So obviously embarassed I just state it to P and then turn back to him and we chat about whatever, nothing in particular. Then we were kind of quiet and so he tries to kiss me only to be greeted by my cheek. Finally he asks what I am thinking of and that's when I lose all sense of any resemblance of a normal person and start babling on about the book I should finish and go on to talk about Dostoevsky. This is of course out of nervousness but what can you do, So then it was time to go,
I missed the last local bus back so decided on taking the rapid bus and walking an hour from the station. I should mention that while at the lounge I really needed a toilet and was too lazy to find it. So I ended up having to wait three hours. The only happenings that were remotely interesting other then my very quick pace was a drag race followed by a police car a couple blocks behind and a rabbit that crossed my path. What happened after I left? P got a cab back to their hotel and playa went into the cab with K to pay for her cab fare - nothing as far as I know happened beyond that. Oh it turned out after that the guy is married with kids. Ugh.
Since then I had chatted with P and was on MSN with him and K at the same time. K got his email from the three-way convo we were having and chatted with him. According to her he does really like me (including my quirkiness) and he doesn't want to pressure me into anything which is why he's okay with what happened. But does want a real kiss (as opposed to the cheek). Too much of a gentleman to force it, which is not something that is all too common from what I've experienced. So she's been kind of egging both of us on: especially since I am going to Kingston to visit for the day.
Now here is the thing ... That makes me very nervous. I am not sure I am ready or if I even want this. I know this sounds silly but here are my reasons why:
1. I am still not completely over my last relationship
2. I don't want to ruin our friendship
3. It's been a long time and I do like him but I am worried that it will be terrible
4. I am more likely then not moving out of the country in August so how can I start something two months before leaving
5. It is in direct conflict with what I feel I am meant to be doing
And now that he's figured out that K has told me what he's told her, he has become more open about his feelings about me.
On a completely unrelated note the guy that works at the Wireless store next to the cafe I work at is a complete douche. Very nasty guy who decided it would be a great night to proposition me in a way. We were having a normal conversation with the meaningless banter of getting to know you because there are really no customers and we are so bored. He asks if I have a bf (no, still no, since the last time you asked - to which he replies well don't you ever just crave the physical aspect of relationships and I say no because I have hobbies to keep my busy like photography - to which he replies you could take a photo of my penis). Ugh. Nasty man.
Oh so last night I saw the movie "UP!" and it was actually really good. The story is amazing and there are really sad and funny bits. It really is a movie for everyone.
On another note it looks like I will have to find a second job which I am a little ticked about. Girl that used to work at the cafe has returned. Girl needs money, fine, but so does everyone else working there. I used to get 20-23 hours/week which was perfect for what I need. I have gone down to working 16-18 hours/week. Her hours? Well, a couple weeks ago they started at 12 and next week? She's got 39. Wait, what? My hours get cut and she gets more then twice the amount of hours she started off with? Someone else's hours went up too. And how about her working 12-5 on the day I get the 5-9 shift? How can you justify that? Really? I am trying to save as much as I can but I still have bills to pay and do want to have a small social life as opposed to doing absolutely nothing. I need to save up for my first month and a plane ticket. How am I supposed to do that with almost half as many hours as I was getting? By getting another job. And in this job market? There isn't very much. At all. I'll have to talk to my boss tomorrow to see about that because, uh, what? The other problem? I will be taking a course next month and will only be free Wed/Thur/Sun afternoon/evenings and as those are the days I will have zero life and go crazy next month between that and the course I will be taking (yup, I am now registered - the thing is it is longer then I thought: 8-12:30 Monday to Friday for the whole month starting with right after Canada Day).
Sunday I shall be going to Kingston for the day. I hope it's nice then what they're predicting which is light rain all day. The plan is probably most likely Wolfe Island. And then on Wednesday I am going to Montreal with E for that day and come back Thursday. Very exciting. I wish I knew I were getting more hours for the weeks afterward so that I could have a little bit of spending money. This sucks royally.
And BTW: those of you jerkwads that added me who are trying to do scams of how to get money from the Canadian government please take me off your friend's list as I am absolutely not interested.