Incriminations
Yet further evidence that all Brian wants is sex: I checked Heather's Myspace today (his friend Heather) and he left her a comment telling her he misses her and how he's looking forward to seeing her and that she's his number one. He finds time to comment on other peoples' pages, and yet he STILL hasn't even added me as a friend. If he really wanted to build a friendship, why would he still have a problem with such simple things? I'll tell you why, it's because he still thinks he has a chance with me and wants to keep rigid boundaries between us. Or he's worried something I see on his Myspace will drive me away.
This little gesture toward someone else hurts a lot, regardless of the fact that he texted me the day before. It just goes to show that we probably can't have the friendship I want, let along a BFF arrangement. So I'll give him another chance if he does end up coming around again, but only if it fits into my schedule. And only then if he absolutely stays on his best behavior... if I even get the slightest vibe that sex is his underlying intention, I'm out.
This is why Heather is so good for me. I don't have to play these stupid games with her. If she's in a weird mood, or she does something odd or potentially hurtful, all I have to do is ask and she'll give me a full explanation. There are no secrets, no evasiveness, no need to wonder why she does what she does.
Speaking of Heather, she and I went to the Snoqualmie Casino last night. My second time in a casino. We got drinks and played slots for a few hours, and I ended up winning 13 bucks... gas money! Pretty awesome, if I do say so. Then we came back and watched Star Trek with my dad, and ate waffles with my parents this morning. It was a pretty damn good time, all told. So why do I feel so trapped and ambivalent toward her? I'll tell you why, it's because she's not overly affectionate like Brian. She doesn't constantly tell me how amazing I am, only to stop once she gets what she wants.
This little gesture toward someone else hurts a lot, regardless of the fact that he texted me the day before. It just goes to show that we probably can't have the friendship I want, let along a BFF arrangement. So I'll give him another chance if he does end up coming around again, but only if it fits into my schedule. And only then if he absolutely stays on his best behavior... if I even get the slightest vibe that sex is his underlying intention, I'm out.
This is why Heather is so good for me. I don't have to play these stupid games with her. If she's in a weird mood, or she does something odd or potentially hurtful, all I have to do is ask and she'll give me a full explanation. There are no secrets, no evasiveness, no need to wonder why she does what she does.
Speaking of Heather, she and I went to the Snoqualmie Casino last night. My second time in a casino. We got drinks and played slots for a few hours, and I ended up winning 13 bucks... gas money! Pretty awesome, if I do say so. Then we came back and watched Star Trek with my dad, and ate waffles with my parents this morning. It was a pretty damn good time, all told. So why do I feel so trapped and ambivalent toward her? I'll tell you why, it's because she's not overly affectionate like Brian. She doesn't constantly tell me how amazing I am, only to stop once she gets what she wants.