TGIF
Im so happy its finaly Friday! Its one in the morning so i guess its really Saturday, but i couldnt sleep. Im talking to Julie, my old clarinet section leader. She was so sweet (still is) she is home from college for the summer, along with several of my other friends. I have seen Ryan Henry, and Maggie Lutz. Not many others have come to visit-other than the usual few. Im nervous about graduating-I understand that im only a junior and i dont need to worry about graduation for another year, but i only have this summer to decide where i want to go and what i want to be. College is right around the corner and i am SO not prepared. I took my SAT and did bad so im retaking it on June 4, and im taking college DE classes next year, and im thinking about Edison. But the one thing i never thought of once was..."what now?" When its all over, where am i going to be, in college near home, away from home, dorm room, or apartment, or at home, will i still be with Lee? Its hard to think of a future that you have never seen. I can see myself as a senior because i have been in high school...but i have never lived away from home so i cant even begin to imagine what it will be like when i do move away-i bet i cry-im a big baby...lol.
Lee came and picked me up from school again today, i love him so much. it hurts to think about it. The feelings i have for him are pretty much burned into my soul and after a year and a half of dating its hard for me to think of being away from him at all either. I can hardly stand a week, what if i move away? He promised me he will follow me to wherever i go (because he is 19 and there is no one that can object)...im just scared it wont work out.
Why do i have all these mixed feelings? Im smart right? All this stuff makes me realize that i should start becoming more prepared rather than just skating on by like i have for the last forever of school and life. I think that all these thoughts racing through my mind are things to make me realize that success takes hard work, and that hard work takes determination. But im determined to do well, even if well is only a C in pre cal and in AP Eng 3.
Im sorry im writting so much, im sure that you have gotten sick of reading my thoughts. But hey, i deal with yours dont i? LOL just playin!
So i downloaded some songs from Shanna and Frances's favorite band-Hawk Nelson-i guess they arent that bad, but i saw those pictures and i was like (dude they are hot!) so now they are considered a good band. And dont you try to tell me that looks dont play atleast a little part in stuff like that! I still think that breaking benjamin is the best, i like all those bands though: sum 41, three doors down and whoever else...i dont care ill listen.
Someone today told me that i didnt look like i listened to a lot of rock, and i was like "just because i dont look like i do something, or am something doesnt mean im not or i dont, it just means that in order to know anything about me, youd have to get to know me. Dont judge a book by its cover". Nice comeback huh? i thought so! LOL.
Wow, this is like the most i have ever written in like anything, except reseach papers and junk. DUDE speaking of which, last night i stayed up till about now (1:30 am) doing some paper for my history teacher Mrs Stroh and i found out today (yesterday-Friday) that it isnt due until next Friday. I got so mad! Why didnt i get that memo! But we (my group and i) presented our posterboard and junk today, we sucked, but the other group did worse LOL (sorry colton, not to be mean)!
I went to work tonight too, i called in late cuz i wanted to stay with lee a little longer, i told tarin i was stuck in trafic lol, i think she knew i was lying, but oh well. I was there from 5-11 anyway. It sucked, i cant stand my manager Patrick sometimes. He can be a real dick head when he wants to. Like he doesnt like me anymore because i agree with amanda (his ex) that he has no right to treat her the way he does, and that he shouldnt be so rude to the customers when they come in. He likes to take out his anger on everyone verbaly, he does it to me a lot to be honest. Sometimes he reminds me of my dad - not a good thing. *go back and read from like november through january if you dont remember*
Ok um, i think im done blabbing for the night, morning, whatever, for now. Love ya budz! NIGHT!!! (morning)
Nicole
ps leave me a message or two for once i never get any! it makes me feel sad...lol JK but seriously do!
Lee came and picked me up from school again today, i love him so much. it hurts to think about it. The feelings i have for him are pretty much burned into my soul and after a year and a half of dating its hard for me to think of being away from him at all either. I can hardly stand a week, what if i move away? He promised me he will follow me to wherever i go (because he is 19 and there is no one that can object)...im just scared it wont work out.
Why do i have all these mixed feelings? Im smart right? All this stuff makes me realize that i should start becoming more prepared rather than just skating on by like i have for the last forever of school and life. I think that all these thoughts racing through my mind are things to make me realize that success takes hard work, and that hard work takes determination. But im determined to do well, even if well is only a C in pre cal and in AP Eng 3.
Im sorry im writting so much, im sure that you have gotten sick of reading my thoughts. But hey, i deal with yours dont i? LOL just playin!
So i downloaded some songs from Shanna and Frances's favorite band-Hawk Nelson-i guess they arent that bad, but i saw those pictures and i was like (dude they are hot!) so now they are considered a good band. And dont you try to tell me that looks dont play atleast a little part in stuff like that! I still think that breaking benjamin is the best, i like all those bands though: sum 41, three doors down and whoever else...i dont care ill listen.
Someone today told me that i didnt look like i listened to a lot of rock, and i was like "just because i dont look like i do something, or am something doesnt mean im not or i dont, it just means that in order to know anything about me, youd have to get to know me. Dont judge a book by its cover". Nice comeback huh? i thought so! LOL.
Wow, this is like the most i have ever written in like anything, except reseach papers and junk. DUDE speaking of which, last night i stayed up till about now (1:30 am) doing some paper for my history teacher Mrs Stroh and i found out today (yesterday-Friday) that it isnt due until next Friday. I got so mad! Why didnt i get that memo! But we (my group and i) presented our posterboard and junk today, we sucked, but the other group did worse LOL (sorry colton, not to be mean)!
I went to work tonight too, i called in late cuz i wanted to stay with lee a little longer, i told tarin i was stuck in trafic lol, i think she knew i was lying, but oh well. I was there from 5-11 anyway. It sucked, i cant stand my manager Patrick sometimes. He can be a real dick head when he wants to. Like he doesnt like me anymore because i agree with amanda (his ex) that he has no right to treat her the way he does, and that he shouldnt be so rude to the customers when they come in. He likes to take out his anger on everyone verbaly, he does it to me a lot to be honest. Sometimes he reminds me of my dad - not a good thing. *go back and read from like november through january if you dont remember*
Ok um, i think im done blabbing for the night, morning, whatever, for now. Love ya budz! NIGHT!!! (morning)
Nicole
ps leave me a message or two for once i never get any! it makes me feel sad...lol JK but seriously do!