I
am on my way to sane. To healthy, or at least mindwise.
I haven't purged in ages. Haven't binged 'til point of explosion since I can't recall. Everything is going ok. I feel terrible some days. I feel like going back to old routines. I feel like giving my self old troubles. But I resist. It's really the most challenging thing I've ever done. Time moves slowly. I can't fuck up with food. I can't work out too much, cause then I'll binge. I can't eat too little, or too healty, cause then I'll binge: I have to stay normal. It feels very strange. And it's not normal for me..
I try to sleep regularely, but it's hard. Try not to get drunk too often (have to work on that). And try to keep the smoking at a minimum.
I'm going to put myself on top of the list. I'm going to feel better.
I'm going to laugh and dance. I'm not going to spend my days in a fucking gym. I'm gonna do salsaclasses, maybe yoga, but I'm not gonna count calories and beat myself up over nothing.
I haven't purged in ages. Haven't binged 'til point of explosion since I can't recall. Everything is going ok. I feel terrible some days. I feel like going back to old routines. I feel like giving my self old troubles. But I resist. It's really the most challenging thing I've ever done. Time moves slowly. I can't fuck up with food. I can't work out too much, cause then I'll binge. I can't eat too little, or too healty, cause then I'll binge: I have to stay normal. It feels very strange. And it's not normal for me..
I try to sleep regularely, but it's hard. Try not to get drunk too often (have to work on that). And try to keep the smoking at a minimum.
I'm going to put myself on top of the list. I'm going to feel better.
I'm going to laugh and dance. I'm not going to spend my days in a fucking gym. I'm gonna do salsaclasses, maybe yoga, but I'm not gonna count calories and beat myself up over nothing.