as far as live journal goes. it's not like livejournal is our entire world. taking you off my friendlist isn't on the same level as stabbing you or something like that. I just did it cuz i didn't want to read posts that were upset at me or from you. i needed time away from it all. I found the last post just cuz i was bored and curious. i had thought you were ignoring my comment and just didn't want to talk to me and i only checked to see if you'd written any entries since to see if you were just leaving the comment unreplied for that reason.
It's been a week since the play, and it's not like before the play was any different. You almost never IMed me or asked me to hang out. I think the only time you and aja have actually contacted me about doing something was when you needed transportation somewhere, like to go see Pan's Labyrinth or go to a party. And i'm sorry if saying that seems really mean, but it's honestly how things feel.
I didn't mean to hurt you or betray you. And if you think i'm not hurt by all that's gone on too, you're very mistaken. And yeah, i have trouble bringing stuff up that's bothering me, cuz everytime i have in the past, people get mad at me or upset with me for saying anything. So i just try to ignore it and bottle it up until something like this happens.
I didn't ever want to lose you two as friends. You're not the worst things in my life and you're not trash. I've been hurting too and I don't exactly have the best self control when those bottled up emotions break out.
I really don't want to fight with either of you either. I'm just trying to explain things as calmly as I can.
josh, why would I IM you or ask to hang out with you when I know for a fact that you've said you don't want to go to connecticon with us anymore because you don't want to see us? I'm not going to ask if I'm going to get shot down. and I never IM anyone. I never remember too. the people I talk to IM me. I'm terrible about that. ^^;;; and I hate the phone. the only way I talk to people on the phone is if they call me. that's probably the result of being friends with claire, who won't let me call her because I'd have to pay long distance and she doesn't.
and josh, we didn't want rides when we asked you about movies or parties. we asked you because you were invited and we wanted you there. it was great you had a car. it made doing things a lot easier. but we liked hanging out with you more. we like you, not the car.
we're not like your old friends, so don't lump us into the same category. you bottle things in or hide them, we get upset. so let us straight when something first bothers you.
if you want to have a break from us, tell us before you start deleting us from your lj, making new accounts to avoid us or anything of the sort. tell us and we'll leave you alone for awhile.
and don't talk shit about us. ever. because I've never done the same about you and you're putting not only mutual friends in an awkward situation, but even your girlfriend. just don't.
It's been a week since the play, and it's not like before the play was any different. You almost never IMed me or asked me to hang out. I think the only time you and aja have actually contacted me about doing something was when you needed transportation somewhere, like to go see Pan's Labyrinth or go to a party. And i'm sorry if saying that seems really mean, but it's honestly how things feel.
I didn't mean to hurt you or betray you. And if you think i'm not hurt by all that's gone on too, you're very mistaken. And yeah, i have trouble bringing stuff up that's bothering me, cuz everytime i have in the past, people get mad at me or upset with me for saying anything. So i just try to ignore it and bottle it up until something like this happens.
I didn't ever want to lose you two as friends. You're not the worst things in my life and you're not trash. I've been hurting too and I don't exactly have the best self control when those bottled up emotions break out.
I really don't want to fight with either of you either. I'm just trying to explain things as calmly as I can.
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and josh, we didn't want rides when we asked you about movies or parties. we asked you because you were invited and we wanted you there. it was great you had a car. it made doing things a lot easier. but we liked hanging out with you more. we like you, not the car.
we're not like your old friends, so don't lump us into the same category. you bottle things in or hide them, we get upset. so let us straight when something first bothers you.
if you want to have a break from us, tell us before you start deleting us from your lj, making new accounts to avoid us or anything of the sort. tell us and we'll leave you alone for awhile.
and don't talk shit about us. ever. because I've never done the same about you and you're putting not only mutual friends in an awkward situation, but even your girlfriend. just don't.
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